Stop Procastinating

I have no idea what's the hell is wrong with this week!! It's a week of mood swing, feeling as though I am having PMS!! Everything is going so wrong yet so right! And what the hell am I talking about? Feeling so right and wrong about everything?? get a grip!!!

This hasn't been a really productive week, the to do list are always so long and ever increasing and yet I have been procastinating the whole f**king week!! Looks like I can spend my weekend trying to make up for everything that I have yet to done.

Feelings of missing something in my life is getting stronger and stronger, don't really like this feeling. It's definitely messing up my life quite a LOT, this really brought me back closer to that very faithful day. I always thought that I have walked away from it, but the fact is that I have been burying things up quite a bit. Quite worry that one day things will start crawling to haunt me again. Think I can't really type with all these craps messing my brain. (Gonna take a break now, and continue once I have clear up my thoughts.)

Back! Brrr.. Outside is real cold and freezing, teeth just don't stop chattering. Lucky, my room isn't that cold and feel so cosy. It's now 3 am in Australia, my sleeping time is so mess up, can't really sleep before midnight and infact this is the period when I feel most awake! Let me back track so that I can make myself a little clearer. This whole just isn't in the mood to do anything, everything just seems to slip throught, and perhaps, it just the missing thoughts that is making my life so difficult to pass by. Feel as though there is 2 different person in me, fighting, and the winner will make me do "he" wants to do. And sad thing to say is that I saw no winner in them. sigh..

The worst of the week should be last Sunday or should I said Monday early morning, and lucky enough and unfortuately I had someone who is of worse plight than me, so I took the car out and went for spin. Emotions were getting into me a little and not realising I am driving a very old unserviced car and not to mention it was drizzling. So there I was driving a little reckless until I was reminded of the car and road conditions. And it definitely brings me back to reality and to drive with caution. Don't think I will blog about what happen that night, but it's one night I will remember. Don't worry things wasn't as bad as you think, and I did not meet with a close accident or a near death!

hmm.. think this blog is gonna bored everyone out big time. I think I seriously have problems writting my feelings down or even voicing my feelings out. But nevermind, those people who know me well will have no problem translating what I want to say! ;)

I should just stop here, feels much better now. Thanks.