Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year to all!!
WOAH!! 2005 finally arrived.. i have waited this year think since 2004 came.. hei i m 100% serious!! not even a bit exaggerating lor.. well since this is my so call 1st official blog entry, i think i will do abit intro 1st.

well.. let's tok abt this blog 1st.. created this blog on my Bday.. as mentioned, this blog will be delicated to her.. as she is the one who make it possible lor, after she left i was basically left with too much time on my hand, then somemore can't even tok to her.. so might as well create a blog, put in my feelings and hopefully she will see this blog one day.. ppl out there, if u noe who i m toking about please let her noe that such a site exists.. at least i can increase the percentage of her seeing all these rite?? THANKS HUR!!

today is the 1st day of 2005~~ really excited abt this year lor.. coz lz year basically my life was in a mess.. the number of extras and weekend duty that i done is uncountable, the things that happen in my life jz isn't gng as expected.. everytime i hope for this to happen, then the opposite will actually happen.. wat is worst is the fact that i lost her.. when she tell me, i was really really devasated, so much so that i think i let myself fall into depression.. but thankfully, i manage to realise things were gng a little too far off track. wat worse was that all these things happen while i was in australia.. i really feel so helpless n hopeless.. and till now i still feel so helpless..

i tot i can win her back when i cme back to singapore but the more i try, the further she go.. hai.. feel so toopid.. yes i noe, u guy has advice me not to be toopid lor.. but u noe sometimes ppl jz need to find the ans by themselves b4 they can see the whole pic.. there was so many occasion that i walked aimlessly to nowhere and it always jz ended up to somewhere near her.. it really feel so terrible at that time.. ok ppl.. u can scold me nw.. i really feel so toopid now.. but i can tell i have not regret wat i have done.. :) hmm... i wonder if this blog can add emoticons anot?? u shall find out in my nz blog entry..

oh ya b4 i forgot i wanna apologise to her for all the inconvinence caused by my foolish behave.. the paragraph below is for her..

[[dun be angry anymore lah hor.. i was really really blinded by emotions that i couldn't control.. really please forgive the mistakes that i have done, there is no one in this world that is perfect.. it oni takes hw long for one to realise the mistakes.. there was a proverb or something like tat, tat said "To Err is Human, To Forgive is Saint" correct me if i am wrong..

err.. if u ever were to feel guilty abt wat u done, pls dun.. coz frm the day that i have make my decision to be wif u, i have oreadi forgiven ur mistakes.. if ever u need energy, strength and support for some very difficult decision and period, and no one else u can turn to, feel free to come n look for me.. i definitely will be there.. u will always be welcome.. there r lots of things that i still wanna tell u and give u, but i neber really have a chance to do so.. i really hope that we can still be friends.. hope that u will ring me up one day..]]

hmm.. have i covered almost everything?? i think i have..