My Story, My Life

A new chapter.

2007-02-04T11:26:00.000+08:00

Hello!! It has been a hell long time since I last blog. Reason because there's nothing interesting to talk about, have been unemployed for quite sometime until now.

So now with a "career" on hand, which needs a lot of time to cultivate, I will try to spice up my life a little here and there. So look out for more here.

By the way, don't ask me what I do, I'm under the secrecy act so I think you can guess what is it but I'll still bring the life of people from within.

So in a short while when I get the hang of working life, then a full blown of chronicles will appear here..

Second Anniversary~~!!

2006-12-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

Second Anniversary of this blog and a very Happy Birthday to myself!!

Please stay tune on this blog, I didn't forget about this blog.

Sticky: Not blogging here for a while.

2006-09-17T03:03:00.000+08:00

Like the topic, not blogging here for a while.

In meantime, read this ---> . <---

Blek!!

2006-07-25T15:27:00.000+08:00

A million apologies for the super lack of post for the past "millions" years. I need not die, so don't need to worry about me, just that I have been having too much fun thats all!! Don't envy yet, because this is only the tip of the ice berg.

What have I been doing for these few months? Here's a short summary of things. In the beginning, I was super busy with school work. Out of the four semester here, I dare say this semester is the worst! Having an average of 4-5 hrs of sleep daily, all other times are mainly rushing for deadlines and stuffs.

And straight after all the assignments and project were completed, it was the beginning of the exams. Surprisingly, the exam period was much more relaxed then the meeting of deadlines period.

After exams, it's PARTY TIME!! First was Melbourne trip, then Sydney trip, then Convocation (Yep, I have FINALLY graduated!) and lastly tour around Brissie with my parents. And finally here I am.

Watch for the next entry, lots of pictures coming up! I promise.

Stay tune!

SIGH!!!

2006-05-31T17:34:00.000+08:00

Today, has just official move into one of the Worst Day ever will happen to me..

Feel like giving up and stopping everything.. Just too sick of it......

SIGHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!

I need to breath!!

2006-05-19T02:16:00.000+08:00

One sentence to describe my life now..

I AM GAN SI LAN BUSY!!

Thats all.. someday I'll write something...

It's finally done!!

2006-04-26T19:58:00.000+08:00

The word is out!! Hurry down to this, sure rock your world upside down blog, at least it works for me!! QUICK QUICK!!

http://isfiftyenough.blogspot.com

Click on it to find out more!! Don't click and you will definitely regret!!

Disappearing Act

2006-03-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

Sorry people it has really been a long time since I last blogged. It really have been an eventful week, assignments, projects, practicals, tutorials, you name it and I have work on it! Anyway, right now I'm trying something new! I'm Blogging from my lecture on my phone. It's a little slow to type out everything using the super small keypad and super tiny screen!

Today lecture is on java servlets, currently teaching on how to send a request using html. Kinda boring right? I agree, and I have to go through it! Lecture hall is cold! I need body warmth, any volunteers?

This semester back, I have become closer to some friends and sadly some have distance themselves from me. Is it some thing that I've done? I doubt so. Anyway it doesn't really matter to me cause it just tell me what type of person you are, maybe I'm wrong on judging you, proof me otherwise.

This lecture is really torturing, 30mins into it and I can see people napping, some "praying" to the lecturer (read: nodding off). Cool! A guy just walk off, that should proof my point of how I am been tortured! Where's the break?! I DEMAND FOR A BREAK!! Stop talking already!

Oh! Have I mention that I have lost weight. Don't need to envy, it will be easy if you are having one meal per day! It's definitely not a healthy way, soon, I'll be left with skin and bones. I'm out of ideas to write!

Something to ponder on. If given a chance to ask one question to one person, who would you ask and what would you ask?

I am no longer pissed! :D

2006-03-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I have to apologise for all the vulgarities in the previous entry. Of course I can easily hit the delete button and it will disappear forever from the surface of earth or at least zapped out of cyberspace, however I won't be doing it because that's how I felt at the precise moment. It's my way to venting and letting it go although I still need some time to self-soothe a little before I can be normal again.

My deepest apologies again.

Although the whole incident has flash by pretty quickly, I still have some questions in mind or maybe some confusion.

Can't concentrate much with all the msn popping. Thats all for now.

I AM FUCKING PISSED!!!

2006-03-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

I AM FUCKING PISSED!!! I HATE PEOPLE WHO HANG THE FUCKING FREAKING NABEI CHEE BYE PHONE ON ME!

I certainly hope I am wrong on this but for now I am FUCKING PISSED!!

NABEI CHEEBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holiday no more.

2006-02-22T15:21:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! Left 3 more days for me before I head back to Australia. Flying off on Saturday, 25 Feb midnight flight!

Alright more posting when I am back in Australia, lots of pictures coming up as well. Stay Tune..

Valentines' Day!

2006-02-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

Yoz people! How is everyone? Sorry for the lack of updates, nothing up my sleeves as usual!

So now with about 15 days left before I depart for Australia to do my final semester of studies, I should cherish every single day but sad to say, I got no plans almost everyday. Everyday is just like another, totally no spice at all, so with Valentines' Day coming and yet no plans for it, I've decide to advertise for one! See this is how bored I am!!

I remember quite long ago blogger were doing this as well, can't really remember who is it though. Here goes..

Win A Date with me on Valentines' Day.

Venue : Town Area

Programme for the night :
-Dinner at places like swensen, garlic restaurant etc.
-After dinner will romantic walk at some places.
-Will send winner back to doorstep.
-Duration will depends on winner curfew? Incase you all really find me boring la.

Terms and Conditions:
-Applicants must be between 21 years old to 29 years old.
-Applicants must be 100% female, means you are born female.
-Applicants must be single.
-Judges decision (my decision) is final
-Application closed 12 Feb 2006, 2359 hrs.
-Winner will be announced and contacted personally by me.
-No announcement will be prior before any changes.
-One application per applicant.

To Apply:
-Kindly attach a picture of yourself, must be able to see face. I will use the photograph to recongnise your face on the actual day, if picture and you don't look alike I will continue to act blur.
-A short introduction of yourself. (e.g. your job, your hobbies, philosophy in life, etc)
-An essay of less than 1000 words on why you should win.
-Indicate your blog URL if you have one.
-Email your application to email2kang@gmail.com

What you waiting for? Hurry your applications!!

QUICK QUICK!! I'm waiting for you!!!

Sick Leave

2006-01-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

nerdblogger will be on sick leave till a later date.

Lots of virus spreading around, do take care people.

Cold Shoulders

2006-01-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

Main Entry: cold shoulder
Function: noun
: intentionally cold or unsympathetic treatment
- cold-shoulder transitive verb

This is definitely one of my most dreaded feeling to experience, perhaps it's just my retribution.

Anyway, no matter how discreet you try to avoid a person or however good skills you have in giving people the cold shoulders. To them, it doesn't make a difference, because to them it just hurt as much as it is. I understand sometimes it is hard to reveal your feelings to the other person, however to the other party, revealing your true feelings will definitely caused them less pain.

Generally speaking there are two types of "Cold Shoulder". The first is of the better one, this is done when you are not interested in someone at all, infact it did not even start!

Scenario:
You went clubbing at MoS, got someone not to your likings or calibre, approached you and try to make friends with you. You give him/her the cold shoulders. This is perfectly alright, as this is just telling straight into their faces that you are not interested!

The second one, which I detest the most and it's also the one that hurts. This is where the feelings for each other might already be mutual but suddenly you have a second thoughts on things.

Scenario:
You get to know a person and your friendship has blossom significantly. You have been communicating with each other both verbally and electronically, the sparks is already there, infact the flame might have been burning already. Then suddenly, you have a second thoughts or second opinion towards the other party and you seems to suddenly disappear vanish from the surface of the earth, leaving behind a person who is totally unaware of the situation and stranded.

I am not saying that it's wrong to have second thoughts but I feel it's just wrong to keep the other person waiting or guessing.

If you are feeling guilty of giving people the cold shoulders, it's time for you to apologise!

Merry Christmas!!

2005-12-25T02:53:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all!! May all your dreams and wishes come true!

Happy Holidays!

Rice Table Restaurant

2005-12-23T12:24:00.000+08:00

There surely must have some reasons for all the recent controversy on the standard of the service industries. Singapore although is a developed country but the service and the graciousness of the people over here, really proof otherwise. It's not totally that bad, but it only takes one black sheep to taint all of us.

Here's my exciting encounter with the waiter at Rice Table restaurant in Suntec. On 19 Dec 2005, Monday, together with my friends, we decided to try out at that restaurant as we have heard quite a lot about it.

On arrival, first glance at the almost empty restaurant will means that there's definitely have seats for us. So we took a while looking at the menu while waiting for the staffs to come serve us. However, we realise that all the staffs were standing at the cashier counter chatting away, as if we were invisible. For your info, the cashier counter and the main entrance is 2 steps away.

So I took the initiative to step a tiny step forward so that we will be a little more obvious that we are some hungry soul wanting to eat. Looking at all the staffs at the cashier counter, I really thought I am invisible or some sort, they just continue with whatever they are doing. With the increasing blood pressure, I have to make my presence felt by calling out! I regret the outcome of what is going to happen, the staffs, after realising I exists they turned to look at each other, as if I have Bird Flu, as if I am the cause of the upcoming pandemic.

So with all the sudden "arrows" flying everywhere from their eyes, I think the most junior staff got struck. So with all the dismay displayed in his face (read: FUCK OFF), he slowly approached me and asked me a few questions which will bring this entry to climax!! I can't really remember the exact conversation, here's roughly what happened.

me: Can I have table for (turning behind and counting the number of people) 5?
waiter: (Totally not hearing what I say) HEI, GOT MAKE RESERVATIONS A-NOT??
(Hello~~!! If got make reservations still ask you for table for what? Too much time to spare? And what's with the rasing of voice)
me: erm.. Sorrrrrrry. No.
waiter: NO RESERVATIONS?!?!??!?! (Sound as if it's the most ridiculous thing he ever heard!) NO TABLE! (After saying this, he turned around and walked off.
me: ........... (Jaw almost dropped on the floor. Eyes almost popped out. And feel as if I am going to have a stroke there and then!)
me: (turning to my friends) WAH LAU, DARN FUCK UP ATTITUDE!! (And nodding in unity in disgust! And walked off.)

Did I mention that throughtout this whole "conversation", he did not even look at me once in my face and need I mention that his standing posture, body language remind me that of those ah-beng trying to pick a fight.

This is really service at it's worst! I mean I would have understand if you tell me nicely n politely if the restaurant is fully booked on MONDAY night. I would really appreciate if you were to apologise for the restaurant been fully booked. And I would been really gladful if the FREAKING ATTITUDE of the staffs is better!

I don't know what image of Singapore will be paint if I were a foreigner. You tell me..

I am not lazy, just physically conservative.

2005-12-14T17:20:00.000+08:00

WooWooh~~~!!! My blog has been around for a year! I have survived the average expectancy of a blog. Well, if you haven't noticed, my blog has moved from http://kangblog.blogspot.com to http://nerdblogger.blogspot.com. In case you are wondering why the shift, I've actually wanted this site name when I start my bloggin life style but this name was initially taken by someone else.

If you have been following my blog since the beginning or you have at least went through all my entries at least once, you should know that I actually delicate this blog to her. Go read the 1st Jan entry. Don't be lazy, I won't include the link here.

Gosh! I'm writing crap already! Here's some happenings during this week. I'll talk about my Birthday celebration some other day.

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On Thursday, I went for an interview for an intern for PSA. Big company, Big prospect but miserable pay. They are offering $700/mth. So there I was, scheduled for the 4pm interview, at 3.30pm I am still in Woodlands, thinking that I still have 1.5 hours to prepared for it.

So after staring at the clock for 5 sec, trying to figure out how much time does it takes for 3.30pm to reach 4.00pm, I realised I am super late for my interview. So in less 30 sec, I am hoping for a cab to pick me up and fly me to my destination.

I was 15 mins late upon arrival, I was shocked to see other interviewee wearing extremely formal, with shirt and tie. Well, I wasn't really prepared for this interview, I was wearing tshirt and jeans. I feel so much like an outcast on his death parole.

The moment I step into the interview room, the guy interviewer commented I am very casual for the interview, how I wished there was a hole there for me to hide in it. A quick introduction from them and they asking me questions about myself. I don't know what's wrong with me, I was basically been a comedian making both of them laughing and smiling throughout. By the way I did commented how miserable the pay is.

In less than 15 mins, I'm done with it. Even the receptionist outside commented that I was rather quick for the whole interview. In my mind, I was laughing and thought to myself how I really screwed up the whole interview.

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Friday, the most troubled day of the week, went for another two interview. In between the two interview I received a call from PSA informing that I am accepted for the internship. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!? I can't believe that after screwing up the interview I sill got accepted!?!? With that I am faced with two choices, an opportunity to make my resume looks good or find a better paying job. Can you believe that I am so troubled by it that I called or smsed everyone to ask for an opinion, I even got off the wrong MRT station thinking of it! However, the utimate decision still lies with me. So in the end, I've decided to decline the job.

Was it a wrong decision? I don't know, you tell me.

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Another thing, have you met with those 13 - 14 years old students asking for legal donation in town or central HDB area. Here's my 2 encounter.

First, this doesn't quite invovle me but other in the streets. It's at the traffic light area at manadrin hotel, crossing the road will be Heeren and the other side it's the California Fitness centre. These bunch of girls are basically harrassing the civillians that were innocently passing by, 2-3 girls cornerning guys with or without girlfriends. I don't know what are they trying to promote? Themselves or gain donation for the charity organisation.

Second, I wasn't harrass by the girls in this encounter but I think they were rather rude. So here I was walking towards the bus interchange and was stopped by this 13 - 14 years old girl. Initially, she told me she was doing a survey and asked if I can kindly contribute a little of my time. Of course, I gladly agreed because I know the feeling of been an surveyor.

However, 30 seconds into her opening speech, I realise I was talk into donation for an charity organisations. I should have remember their organisation and named it here to shame, fortunately for them and unfortunately for me, I forgot about it. After realising, I have been "conned" into a donation talk, I politely decline the donation. It is then she start to give me the face that she is very disappointed and pouting her lips, as if she is about the cry!

What the hell!! She told me that it is a survey and not some donation thingy, I already did not give you my two cents worth on telling you the differences between a survey and a donation, she still dare to make it seems like it's my fault! WHAT THE HELL!! The worst thing is that, I have to apologise for her time wastage to make her feel better and who knows, she pout her lips even more!! WHAT THE HELL!! ANGRY!!

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Sunday, I called up and talk to lp. I am so so so sad and dissappointed after it. Why? Because I have lost a friend and the feeling of losing one is just as bad as losing someone who you cherish. Well, she want me to totally dissappear from her life, meaning that I don't exists in her life at all. At that moment, I felt as if my heart has been stabbed. Nonetheless, I decided to respect her decision, hoping one day she will come round and regret her decision, in fact I felt sorry for her.

What I can do is only so much, I can only hope and pray that she will meet someone better than me, who will take her by her hand and guide her through her life.

This time, I think I really have totally let go and moved on..

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Now, since I got no work, no girlfriends, no nothing. I AM BORED! If you reading this give me a call and ask me out, k?

Happy Birthday to me...

2005-12-06T02:42:00.000+08:00

Quick! Wish me happy birthday!

More parties and pictures on the way. Will update when I'm ready.

By the way, today is also the anniversary of my blog. Yeah!!

Pleading for help!!

2005-12-04T03:52:00.000+08:00

Been back in Singapore for a little more than three weeks and yet I feel I have achieved nothing except seeing a lot of people! I regret I have neglected quite a few bunch of people, not that I purposely want to neglect them but I just doesn't have time and money for it. Every outing requires money and time and I have limited resources for both. Hmmm.. How about some donations to the needy? (ME!!!)

So what have I been doing all these while other than meeting up with a lot of people. Well, one thing is I have been trying to access into my HDD which I have problem trying to that. I certainly hope I'm still able to rescue my data from it. Here's what actually happen and I seriously hope someone will be able to help me with it, if you happen to know or know someone who can help, pleassssseeeeeee let me know!!! Getting a little panicky about it, I have like thousands of photos in it!

I brought back my HDD back from Australia, the HDD is running using SATA and my operating system is Windows XP Professional. The HDD is split and formatted into 2 main NTFS partition, a 30GB partition and a 50GB partition. The operating system is installed into the 30GB partition and in the 50GB partition it contains all my other stuffs, i.e. pictures, assignments, projects, thesis, presentations, researches, lecture notes, basically my life is stored in it. As we understand Windows XP Professional has the ability to add security features into the drive especially so on NTFS drives.

However, my Singapore PC, operating on Windows XP Home edition has a screwed up SATA HDD which is about to crash! Not knowing that, I plugged my HDD into the system and power on it and before it prompt for the login screen, it start performing a Disk Check on my HDD drives. It then showed an invalid key in my HDD and starts replacing all the invalid keys with a key of its own. I reckon it has replaced the whole 50GB of my HDD as it took nearly 2 hours to complete the whole process and a few millions key were replaced.

Now even if I were to boot up directly from my HDD I am only able to access the 30GB of my HDD. Although it is still showing the directory of my 50GB partition, it only displayed that the drive is invalid and a quick check in properties show that the drive contains 0KB of datas on a 0KB drive. I've tried accessing my HDD using a program that read NTFS drive without going through windows, the program is running a 'raw' kernel, but to no avail! Please help me!!!!! I really need the data, not very urgent yet but as time draws nearer, I reckon my balls will also start to "shrink".

I thought of running my HDD using linux system but I don't think I can find anyone who has such a system here with SATA capability.

Nothing but random thoughts.

2005-11-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

I realise it's pretty boring just to blog about everyday life to the minute details of it. Like for example this blog but please try not to click on it too much, free advertisement is not good. And also the owner will be darn proud of his increasing viewership, and he will start to crap about it.

So as I was saying, it really is boring. I'm sure you wouldn't be interested in where I go, what I eat, who I have met, right? And the worst thing is I never take any photographs from any of my outings. Well, what interest me most is certainly how all my friends has change, as in their perception to things. They must have experienced a lot of things when I'm not around. I wonder why am I not study psychology when I am so interested in human thoughts and behaviour.

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I don't understand why people can start a relationship when they know there's totally no tomorrow in it. And I really wonder why do they have the courage to make plans for everything when they know the deadline for the end is coming soon.

I don't know who is more selfish in this? I wonder if there is another word to better describe it. Well, as a friend I certainty don't wish to see them fall.

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Enough of the boring stuffs. Well I have been thinking for a little while about myself, if you have been an avid reader of my blog, you should've read about the post on reasons to love and not to love. It's on the August 26 post.

Anyway, I think I'm falling into the loneliness category. However, the contradicting part in this controversy is the fear of hurting another person. Not the fear of been hurt but the fear of unable to commit fully i.e. whole-heartedly. Any rush decision will definitely cause hardship to other party.

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Now really enough of boring stuffs. My Birthday coming soon!! So have you guys prepared my birthday presents, surprises and wishes?

If you are wondering what to get for me, here's a list on what I want. Online reader can also give me as well, nothing to be shy about. This mean you!!

The list is not arrange in order of preferences.

Wetsuits - For scuba diving, must have long pants and long sleeves. 5mm thickness will be nice.
Diving gloves - Don't need to explain further. Must be cool and trendy.
Diving fins and mask - For fins I want the split fins. Mask must be silicon for the contact between the mask and face.
Perfume - Hugo Boss I think Soul or another one. I only remember it's one of the two latest fragrance.
PDA - The highest end of PDA. But have to be small and most important COOL~~~!!!
Handphone - SonyEricsson W800i.
Underwater Camera - Good choice as well.
Memory card - SD card, please at least 1GB.
Watch - I like metallic stuffs.
Sunglass - Oakley only.

All the above are just too expensive, here's some alternative.

Keychains - must be unique and small. Best is metallic.
Birthday Card - At least 50 words long. No money must have heart.
Birthday Treat - Hawker food will also do.

Alcohol - Don't make me puke too much though.
Birthday Songs - Also not bad but must sing individually to me.
Birthday Cake - Don't really fancy but a small small small slice of choc will do.
Chocolate - If really need to give me, dark chocolate please.

Lastly, only the girls will have this priviledge.

Birthday Kisses! - Don't need to explain further right?

8 more days for you guys to prepare.

Random thoughts

2005-11-24T02:09:00.000+08:00

Well it has been almost a week since I'm back to Singapore. Ever since I'm back I have been rather busy meeting up with friends and of course with all the foods that I have missed.

Singapore has changed a lot during my 9 months stay in Australia, everything really has changed even the people, the soul, EVERYTHING. I remember the day I left for Australia, I really left with a heavy heart. It's definitely heavier than the first time I left for Australia. Reasons for the heavy heart? I guess it's the broken heart that I am mending. It really took me a lot of time and with a lot encouragement from good friends.

I am really happy that I have met some really good friends. Hmm.. A strange feeling just overwhelmed me. Guess that I really appreciate their existence. Thank you friends.

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Initially, I was a little afraid of coming back to Singapore. Not because of the changes in Singapore but more towards the memories I have for her. It's not that I don't want to let go, it's just that I am left with so many unanswered questions and doubts. Although I still pretty much want to know the answers to the questions, I guess I'll just have to leave it to fate.

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Went out with a friend today, she seems rather troubled by her BGR problem. Got nothing from my constant probing, however, she did mention that what I see is the tip of the ice berg. Of course I understand that, who don't? When dealing with BGR, it's never possible for a single issue to snowball into something bigger. That's not the point.

What surprised me is by the question she put across to me. She asked me what is the worst thing that she could have done? After probing, I still did not get any answer from her. (I think I suck at digging out information from people.) She only told me that my opinions on her will change if she were to tell me, I believe my friends can vouch me for this, I don't discriminate friends! That's not the point again!

The point is how bad things could go wrong? I believe people will look down on you if and only if you were to look down upon yourself. There may be a lot of things you have regret doing, but what has been done, has already been done. There's no point in reminding yourself of it, if you don't have the heart to repent your wrong doings. Cut things short, I have only one phrase to offer. Cherish what you have now, but be realistic.

Done with exams for this year!

2005-11-17T01:50:00.000+08:00

Exams are over for about a week and one thing for sure, I did not do well for my exams.

I wouldn't say I didn't put in effort because I was studying till the wee mornings everyday with 4-5 hours of sleep on average. It just that the papers are so freaking difficult compare to previous semesters. Maybe I put my focus on the things. Disappointing paper one after another, still can't believe I can put up with all the disappointment and focus on other topics.

Anyway, exams are over! So now I can only hope and pray for better results.

In less than 36 hours, I should be on my way back to Singapore. Sooo excited! Finally I can sink my teeth to all the seafoods, junk food and all other tasty stuffs. So many meet ups need to be done. So many things I want to do. So many places I want to be at. I think my schedule is full till Monday for now. However, money will be another issue, think I'll just deplete my current savings first then find work to do. *sigh*

Got people said I've lost weigh, don't know how true is that. Wait till I see my mama, if she starts nagging then I think I really lose weigh.

One more thing, I'll be changing my blog address to http://nerdblogger.blogspot.com

2 days to home.
20 days to my birthday.

Weird Caller

2005-11-07T21:09:00.000+08:00

This morning I received a call, well it wasn't really exactly in the morning but it woke me up from my sleep, so I will consider it as morning. Anyway, the call lasted no more than 3 sec. If you are wondering what so special about this 3 second call, read on k.

So here I was, having my beauty sleep, on my so so comfy bed and the hp goes off, RINGGGGGGG!! Darn! Who could it be calling me at, I think it's 12 in the afternoon? Couldn't really make out the numbers but manage to notice that the hands of my alarm clock is pointing upwards and rather close together.

So I stumbled across the room, tripping over whatever notes I have on the floor (can't help, exam period! That should explained why I am still sleeping at that hour!). First glance at my phone, it says "Private Number". Only two possible groups of caller to fall into that category, first will be calls from Singapore and the other will be from the house rental agency. First thing that comes to my mind is the calls from the latter because it is almost impossible that I receive calls from Singapore that early, so I am ready to scream my heads off at the caller.

With my super-sexy-haven't-wake-up voice, I managed to croak a Hello. Sounds of a bad reception, I croaked another hello. And 'Clicked' the call ended.

I'm not sure if I am still dreaming or what? I seriously thought I heard a sobbing voice and it sound like her (Go read my previous post dated 3rd June 05 to find out who she is..). From the distorted signal (Lost of signals usually is the problem for overseas calls in the first few seconds.), I thought I heard something like miss you. Well, it could be hate you or curse you but you couldn't have go through all the trouble to make an overseas call to send that message across right?

And of course I did not call back to confirm if she is the culprit or not. Anyway, this got me thinking, what if one day she would do that and ask for a patch back?

Well, I really don't know the answer. I'm pretty comfortable with my life now as a single, and waiting for the next "ferry" to hop on. Maybe letting nature takes its path?

But I still would like to know, WHO THE HELL CALLED ME??

BTW, today 7 Nov is exactly 1 year since she left.

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Since I am already blogging now, might as well continue. Paper on last Saturday is definitely a nightmare come true! The questions were so different from the past years papers. Simply put, my hope of having good grades for this subject is GONE!!

Darn the lecturer, the things that he ask us to concentrate on, are the things that came out in minority. Feel so cheated.

Sigh. Can only blame it on myself, I guess. And there goes my hope on honours. *pui!*

Enough said! Back to the books.

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Have to get this down before I totally forget. Shanice actually send me birthday greetings a month before hand, talk about kiasuism.

Well actually, she got the month wrong. I was wondering how come I'm receiving b'day song and wishes on sms and as well as an ecard from her. Don't think it's hilarious for you all, but it definitely brighten up my day after the disatrous paper. If not I reckon I probably still be sulking over it.

3 more days to end of exams.
11 more days to home.
29 more days to My Birthday!!

One thing I hate most is...

2005-11-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

EXAMS!!!

Need all the luck I can have again, so people it's time to wish me luck and pray for me again. :)

5 Nov - Relational Database Systems
9 Nov - Advanced Database Systems
10 Nov - Introduction to Communications

And finally...

18 Nov - Home Sweet Home!!

3 more days to exams.
8 more days to end of exams.
14 more days to home. (Edit : Should be 16. I think I fail my maths)
34 more days to My Birthday!!

Now back to my studies..

Fear of blogging!

2005-10-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

I am losing my only revenue of ranting! I don't know why! I just dare not to do it, for fear that the person invovle might read it and go crazy about it!

Maybe it's time I stop advertising my blog on my msn nick and hope that everyone will forget about it, then all my darkest secret will come out!

I guess these things sucks pretty much. Sigh, have been bottling up pretty much things in myself, maybe wait till everything is pretty much cool down before I start bitching again, or maybe, go back Singapore and bitch to everyone I know.

That's about it! Nights...

9 more days to exams.
14 more days to end of exams.
22 more days to home.
40 more days to My Birthday!! I STILL WANT PRESENT!!

Random Thoughts

2005-10-24T15:38:00.001+08:00

I can't believe I am blogging out on the computer of the University lab!! Spend a total of don't know how many nights over here, of cause I still go back home, at least to sleep and do other chores.

After spending so many nights over here, I've realise that I am someone who get easily bored and my attention span is the size of this period. Maybe because I have spend too much time on this paper chase, I though that an oversea education will change my perception a little, it didn't happen, at least not for now.

EL commented on my blog layout last night. She was saying something about colour coordination problem, yep I totally agree. Can't help it I spend less than an hour to publish the codes! Anyway the significance of this design is to let me familiarise on how to use Adobe program, can't remember the specific program. I guess I have come up with something after exam.

erm.. If you haven't realise, all these entries are random thoughts that's coming into my mind.

I have been running a lot for the last few weeks at least before I start doing on my assignment overtime! Why all the sudden running? Well, 'casuse I think running tends to make you feel nicer, it's the release of don't know what hormones into your body (perhaps, if you know, you can leave a comments somewhere), I think it's the same as eating chocolate, right?

Maybe because I dare not to accept the fact the some memories have been haunting me quite a fair bit and I simply hate it! Hate it to the core! If I were to curse and swear on it, this entry will be easily voted as the most vulgar entry ever! Nabei! Writing just make me feel bad! *pui*

12 more days to exams.
17 more days to end of exams.
25 more days to home.
43 more days to My Birthday!! I WANT PRESENT!!

Miss you ppl in singapore.

Gossips Gossips Gossips.

2005-10-18T02:30:00.000+08:00

I don't know why am I typing this at 4 in the morning! 2 more weeks before start of SwotVac, this can only mean that I have tons of assignments and reports due!

Anyway, this is not the reason that I am blogging! Recently a lot of gossips has been spreading around, I am not an idiot, I have my own eyes to see even if I am very far away!

Having, I would say, lots of experience this won't affect me much, I don't even care if it's real or fake, but normally a gossip will involve other parties! So what I am more worried is the involvement of other parties.

I dare say I have lost quite a number of friends to senseless gossiping, I hope this won't happen again.

However, if gossips are targeted at me only, feel free to shoot all you want. I would be more than happy if it keep you entertained. Life is boring.

Basket! Feeling damn drowsy! Good Night people! Miss you lots!!!

I'll be back in exactly 1 more month! Whee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!

I am still alive.

2005-10-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

For your info ppl, I did not die. Just procrastinating a little bit too much.

Now what spark me to write this entry tonight. I realise that there are some memories that you wish you can forget but you can't, how irritating this can be.

Every now and then, when memories came back to haunt you everything just seems so fresh and clear as though it just happen yesterday.

Sigh, nevermind. Things will be a lot better tommorrow. :)

Think running 3 times a week really makes the world a little bit more rounder. Tommorrow (Thursday) is a running day. Cooooooool!!!

By the way, I am confirm flying back on the 18 Nov, can't wait. Hope to see all of you sooooon.

I miss you ppl. yup, that include you!!

Away for the weekend.

2005-09-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY!! Going for diving again for the weekend.

When I come back I will be a certified Advance Diver means that more dive for me. Guess I am addicted to diving. Such an expensive hobby to pick up, keep burning holes in my pocket. I reckon this time round there won't be any underwater pictures for you guys to enjoy because it is just so expensive to rent one.

I will be heading to Moreton Islands to dive, do a google search on it if u want to know more. I post more stuff about the trip when I come back on sunday evening.

Oh ya, got my 2 of my results back for my mid-sem exams. Pretty satisfied with my result, if I were to continue to work hard I think I can score well for my exams and that will be another month away.

So for now it's the holidays for me!! Whee~~~~~~!!!!!!!!

For those expecting me, I will be going back on the 18 Nov!! HIPPPEEEE!!! Can't wait.

That's all for now, got to catch some sleep.. bb.

2005-09-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

Incoming Hostile, Clear to engage.

2005-09-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

S211?!?!

I'm back

2005-09-15T23:56:00.000+08:00

As promise I am suspose to write 5 entries right? This will be the first one of the 5.
Guess I do fine in my exams/tests, if you are wondering.

Haven't really got any ideas to blog on, but these might me some topics.

Memories and past. (Have to write this for Mak. He seem very lost now. Let me give him my two cents worth.)
Fireworks. (lots of pictures coming along.)
How about the two bloggers who have been charge?

Oh man, no more ideas. Any one want to know about how I feel about things? Come come, give me some ideas.

erm.. I shall delicate this entry to my junior junior radar spec 3SG Perry Koh Han Min, unfortunately, he has passed away. Click on his name for the newspaper article.

My deepest Condolences to his friends and family.

Be Right Back..

2005-09-11T03:04:00.000+08:00

Sorry to keep you guys waiting.

Mid semester exams are here!! Going crazy about it!! I promise 5 continous entry spam over 6 days after my exam ok? Please do keep visiting. :)

Tue 13/09/05 - INFS3200 Advance Database System
Wed 14/09/05 - INFS2200 Relational Database System
Wed 14/09/05 - COMS3100 Introductions to Communications

For now, wish me lots of luck, ok?

Miss you guys. ;þ

Insanity

2005-08-26T05:02:00.000+08:00

Blogging has become such a chore for me. It just seems that I have lost interest in everything that I am doing. Never in my life I feel myself procrastinate more than now. Even the things that I am once interested, doesn't seems to appeal to me anymore!

Perhaps environment really will change a person, or maybe this is the way that we learn; the way that we grow up. So many things has happen recently, not to me at least (man! I think I need to grab a life! Need something to spice things up a little). Anyway, that's not the point, this is the first time I see so many unhappiness, some people trying hard to get in, some people trying hard to get out and definitely some people getting lost in it.

If you have no idea what is it, you have never been there. What can give you happiest and agony all at the same time except for "Love".

This truely is an complicated issue. This "Love" thing is really a weird thing, I reckon. Those people without it will look high and low for it, and whereas people with it want to be out of it? And I think, the worst part is to get lost in it. What is the thing in "Love" that causing so much insanity around?

Let me try to list out something. Kind of silly of me but what the heck. ;p

Let's try by listing the reason why people want in.

Raging Hormones. I think this occupy a major part of the reason. I reckon most of the people are just plain itchy right? Perhaps this might also be the reason why they are so many cases of abortion and single parents. Is there any ways to curb this? I don't know. You tell me, cause I believe prostitution is wrong. I'll take my stand that I am not in this category!

Loneliness. This I guess will be the wrong reason for people to fall in love. Loneliness doesn't mean you need a gf/bf, it means you seriously need a LIFE urgently! And most likely loneliness will lead back to the first point, Raging Hormones. Maybe you will tell me you got no friends, you got no this, no that. I will fuck you upside down, understand? (not literally) You have been born with a brain not a coconut, if you are able to hook yourself up with a gf/bf, you will be able to make friends. Don't crap that you are not close to them or what fuck shit, how close you want to be? Your friends are always there, just that you don't appreciate them that's all.

Boredom. Something similar to loneliness just that this time round you got your life, your friends, your world. You are just getting sick of all this, you need somethings to spice up your life right? If this is the reason, will you dump your other half once you got sick of him/her? I'd say, go rear some fish! Eat them when you get sick of them, better this way. You have your boredom resolve and your appetite satisfied.

Experience. All first timers will fall into this category automatically. As they said, if you never try, you will never know. So what if you know? What do you get in return? The saying goes, "If it ain't broken, don't break it.". Figure out yourself.

Guilt. This will be the stupidest reason known in mankind history! Just because someone who is showing care and concern for you doesn't mean that you have to be with him/her. Doesn't mean that if he/she were to do something so great and enormous to touch you means that you must be with him/her. You are not doing charity! I mean I make my donations to red cross every month, the money must have touched someone life, does it mean that he/she will be indebt to me forever?

Care and Concern. If you are looking for someone to care and concern about you, you are just simply in love with yourself. I'd suggest you go kill yourself! And if you want to show care and concern to other people, I'd strongly recommend you to become a volunteer. The world needs lots of people like you.

Hehe. I guess the reasons to fall in love has just become the reasons to not fall in love. But if you are really determine, those reasons are definitely why people are falling for it, cause I am also one of them but definitely not the first point!

Ok, now for the reasons to get the hell out of it.

Freedom. Don't you just love it when you can do anything you want whenever you want? When is it the last time when you do something that you truely want without bothering the opinions of others? If you feel like you are a killer on parole then you should just let your killer instinct roam.

Suffocation. Can't breath? You should know if you are having this. You need to breath! Don't even ponder anymore.

Sex Slave. You could be enjoying every seconds of it, BUT IT IS NOT HEALTHY!! He/she is not respecting you at all, do not wait!

Abuse. Please! It's not worth it, not even worth me talking about it.

Unhappiness. Not happy for one or two days is not an issue, but not happy for months is a problem! I think if you are not happy, you are either too demanding or giving too much, do some soul searching.

Compromise. This can be a really good thing, but too much of anything is never good. Compromise too much means that the other half love himself too much, in other words, fuck care about him/her.

Stranger. You would have my respect if you were to reach this stage without anything dramatic experience. The two of you are behaving like a stranger with the occasionally hi byes thingy, most probably, you two require professional conselling. Or maybe an appointment with the shrink.

Enough said, the list will never end! I guess this is how innocent it is for people to want to fall in love and how evil it is for people who are already in it. Didn't know there were so many reason behind such a simple yet wonderful thing.

Cheer up people! At least you still have me to write craps for you to read! Insomia really is getting into me.

Emotional Imbalanced everywhere.

2005-08-12T16:14:00.000+08:00

First, my deepest condolences to Thomas and David. Their grandma passed away on 11 August 2005. The pain of losing love ones when you are in a foreign country is definitely greater than when you are near them.

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For the past weeks, I've been looking around to find something that interests me and for me to blog about. I saw this article in Tomorrow.sg about this girl -TristeFemme- who got pregnant and got ditched by her boyfriend shortly after he found out about the pregnancy.

She has removed her blog this morning, after sheer volume of traffic from Tomorrow.sg readers and probably from other blogs that linked her.

Here's some of it that's been cache by Google and Yahoo.

And I believed the main reason for her actions is probably the senseless comments on who should bear more responsibility. I would said F U all. She write her blog neither to gain sympathy nor asking opinion on who is right or wrong. I think she just need an avenue for her vent out her anger and frustration, to keep herself from going insane.

It nice to see there are a lot of people who send heartwarming wishes asking her to stay strong and brave, but to those people who leave comments such as, she is trying to seek attention, to gain sympathy, to take revenge against her SAF Merit Scholar boyfriend and stuff like that. Who the hell are you to judge them? Are you really that perfect that you have done nothing wrong before?

"For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you."

I suddenly remember a scene from "Passion of Christ", but not clearly enough to write down the whole scene. From my memory, Jesus, drew a line on the ground, and asked the people who were throwing stones at the lady for some sin that she has commit. (Cannot remember what is it. If you know, let me know, k?) Jesus then ask those peopl who are throwing stones at her, that are they sinless that they are able to judge her. (I might be wrong, correct me.) (btw, i'm not christain.)

Since this is already a one-sided story, what is there to judge? I've read some of the article, e.g. yuhui and some others which I don't have the link. (Do a search for "unwanted pregnancy" or "tristefemme" in www.technorati.com, and you find lots of things about it) I am not saying that yuhui is right or wrong, but I think even if TristeFemme is trying to take revenge it's none of our business. In contradiction, I'm poking my nose into yuhui blog. I'll apologise if I sound a little offending to anyone.

Some nice encouraging blog for her. http://loveris.blogspot.com If you remember, I've mention her before in my previous entries.

What provoke me into writing all these craps, I think I seriously kuan buei qi those guys who wants to fuck around and don't dare to take any responsibility. Hope that one day, you will tio STD and die alone. (What an evil curse!)

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Now for another closer to my heart issue. These few days I saw a lot of my friends taking the emotional rollercoaster. It's really heartwrenching for me to see them behaving this way.

To me the friends that I have make here, are really like family to me. These are the people whom I talk to, whom I lived with, whom I eat with, whom I will be willing to share my joy with

If keeping the problems or worries will make you feel better, then I will give u my support.

"For surely there is a hereafter, and your hope will not be cut off."

You know better than I do, if one day you decide to share, I will be the first one to volunteer.

If you are reading this, I'm sure you know who you are.. :)

OMG!! I am such a good Procrastinator. (Super long post!!)

2005-07-31T15:32:00.000+08:00

Procrastination is the deferment or putting-off of an action or task, usually by focusing on some other distraction (compare temporisation). It is Latin for "foremorrowing," or making some such of tomorrow.

I feel nobody can act out this word better than I do. Winter break has come and go, and I have yet to accomplish anything that I am susposed to do during this break. There're so many entries that I failed to write down, for example my Cairns (read as: 'Cans', not 'Canes') trip. Arrggghhh.. What the heck. Lets do the Cairns trip now.

Cairns Trip, 14 July - 20 July

13th July - Almost all packed up and ready to go? I doubt so..
This picture was taken in the wee hours of the 14th July morning (read as: a few hours before my flight to Cairns). Well, been a very good procrastinator, and distraction from LAN Gaming (I LOVE WARCRAFT!!), I failed to manage my time properly!!

14th July - Surprisingly, I still manage to squeeze everything into 2 bags and run off to the airport. NB. Due to the warcraft addict in me, I need not sleep at all.

Now, there you have it, 2 zombie trying to take their pictures.

This was the "resort" that I am staying in, can't expect any much with the amount that we are paying, we have this whole room to ourselves.

I must tell you, how boring Cairns is without any activity. You know what they said, a picture tells a thousand words. WARNING! The pictures below contains EXTREME BOREDOM!

What happen to the beach? Or does it has a beach in the 1st place??

City? I called this kampong.

I don't know what this memorial tower is about. My bad, I should have turn the photo before I upload.

Too much time and too much energy. Can't resist the temptations of the chin up bar, NS has drive me crazy (read: Brainwashed).

Even the dog feel the boredom.

End of a very boring day, WANNA SLEEP LIAO!!! Did not sleep for 2 days.

15 July - After a night without distractions from the computer, I have a really nice sleep.
Woke up to a very exciting day, this is the day where I will learn how to scuba dive!! I think scuba is definitely under-rated, breathing underwater is so amazing!! It's a out of this world experience, you really have to try it to know.

Not having to try snorkelling before, I have little or no trust at all from breathing through the regulator. The moment I went underwater, and after a few breathe from the ultra dry air cylinder, I am very surprise that it really work!! After that, there's no doubt I feel like a fish. Or perhaps a mer'servant? (Mermaid is for female right? What's for a male?)

They day passed by quickly learning all the tricks in the pool.

Oh have I mention that my friend who is susposed to take the scuba course with me, didn't do the course because of some medical reasons. Sigh, a great pity. And I am just so fated that after numerous (read: more than a year) months of planning, I still have to do the course alone. Sigh..

Anyway, I LOVE SCUBA!!

7.50am Shot of the resort signboard.

Dive Classroom, we have to study theories as well, fortunately it's watching DVDs. Oh, we have tests too.

Cairns Night Market, we actually planned not to go this place in the first night just in case we have nothing else to do on the second night! And fortunately, we did it. Yes, it's really that boring!!

Souveniors make of glass, which I intend to get for all my readers, but too bad, you never let me know your existence. A picture is better than nothing lah hor. ;p

Aboriginal Art. More souveniors??

16 July - Sigh. No more pictures for the next 3 days. :( I have surrender my camera to my friend, 'cause as say previously, he is not able to continue with course, so as a very nice guy I am, I lend him my camera.

Anyway, this day is tiring!! The 200m swim and 10 min treading water. And thanks for not excersing for so long, I think I almost drown myself during the 10 min tread. Fortunately, I manage to scrape through the torturing 10 mins.

But it is only after this, that I discover scuba is the laziest sport, sleeping is not a sport right? Sleeping will win if it was a sport.

Another boring night to live through.

17 July - Woah!! No more diving in the boring pool!! Great Barrier Reef, here I come!! Lesson in the reef has proved to be too distracting, there are too many things worth looking, you do not want to waste time doing all the underwater drills.

It's really is the most interesting classroom that I ever went to. How I wish that I can just be below for a really really long time. Infact the only period where I want to get to the surface is actually when I am low on air, even the coldness of the water is not able to get me out of the water.

Two training dive for the day, is definitely not enough! Sigh, the rest of the day is spending time in my live aboard ship meeting new friends.

Sleeping on the ship is so nice. I slept like a baby when my head touch the pillow, the gentle rocking, the crashing of the waves and gentle howling of the wind. SHIOK!!

18 July - Yep. As expected still no pictures. The day that I finally become a certified diver. Think I will post the video of my dive course, definitely is interesting for me but I doubt it will me interesting without my narration of the video.

My fifth and final dive, which is the first official dive as a certified dive is better than any other dive, gone were drills that we try mastering! And hello to all the fishes and corals!

To make it more interesting, I saw a total of 7 sharks!! 1 whitetip reef sharks and 6 grey reef sharks! The first that comes to my mind when I see the sharks was the theme music from the movie JAWS. Dum..... Dum..... dum... dum.. dumdum dumdum.. hehe..

Really is an exciting experience that make my heart pump so fast, and making me breath so hard and fast, shortening my dive time.

2 days out in the sea, my body is still rocking even after I am standing on solid ground.

19 July - White water rafting!! After 4 days of been wet, the feeling of getting wet and cold again isn't that great. The water from the river is really freezing cold, something like what you would expect if you were to soak your hands in water full of ice. I am not exaggerating!! Ok maybe a little.

5 hours of rafting? You would expect it to be tiring right? But it's the opposite! The river flow is doing most of the work, so not much of peddling.

I have pictures of my rafting experience but isn't here yet, so I will post the pictures as soon as I get my hands on it!!

My souvenior from the rafting! Ouch! I got this when an alligator try to eat me up, I have no choice but to punch it with my bare hands. If you this is bad, you should see what happen to the alligator, I think it's going to die from starvation unless someone were to bring it to the vet to cure its dislocated jaw.

Well, actually I am stupid enough to knock my fist into the rocks. When the raft bum into it.

My friend trying to show me, she knows kung fu. (Out partying with my new friends)

Chio Bu!!!

Best drinking pal from Germany! Not very sober.

I'm so wasted!! Blame it on the photographer!! Shit I should have take these pictures when I am more sober!!

20 July - Wah!! Finally the last day!! Spend 3 hrs on this blog liao!! After the stupid drinking session the previous night, this day is definitely draggy! Sightseeing at Mossman Gorge (just did a search on what a >gorge is?) and Port Douglas. The Pictures will highlight the interest of the days, which is none?!?! You judge yourselves.

Stones and trees are the only that we saw at Mossman Gorge.

Feels like I am back to my army days! I hate the jungle!!

HELP??

If you think I am bored, wait till you see her. At least, I have remain sane throughout the ordeal.
She?? Hard to said. (The one who wrote the 'HELP!', she really need help soon.)

Seafood Platter for two for dinner. But this plate definitely is enough to go around for 4 which is what we did. Should have taken down the reaction of the waiter when the four of us order the seafood platter for 2, I think his eyes almost pop out!!

Branding Singaporeans for 'Kiasuism' is not even close to fair! You should see how the queue balloon 20 mins before the check in counter opens. Here's the proof!

WooWoooh!! Finally I finish this!!

Lots more pictures in flickr link. I neber blog about the underwater pictures that I took but it doesn't need much narration, it's all fishes and corals, don't ask me whats the name of the species, I can answer some but not all!

Here's the link http://www.flickr.com/photos/nerdblogger/

More coming soon, I've reach the limit of this month bandwidth of uploading the pic.

3.5 hours on this entry!! I'm too free!!

Miss Me?

2005-07-21T15:29:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!! I am back from cairns!! Did you miss me??

Anyway, here's some preview of the pictures.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/nerdblogger/

There's a lot more, I will write my experience when I finished organising the pictures. Be patient.

Off to Cairns

2005-07-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

Finally figure out how to post pictures into Flickr and link it back to my blog. And there, more pictures from now on.. :)

Did some tweaking in the template codes, I'm surprise that either the bandwidth or something weird was happening from fireangel wasn't enough to support proper display pictures in my blog, that's why you have been looking at empty or broken link.

Didn't really realise it. Anyway thanks to my First Hate Fan - MJ.

These are some comments that he/she (I think it's a she, just a gut feeling) left behind.

At 3:29 AM EST , MJ bitch...
*sigh* what a fantastic (blank?!) blogskin you've got!! maybe you should use your foreskin instead, haha!! and you in IT ?? what a disgrace

At 3:26 AM EST , MJ bitch...
Wish you fail all your exams...

Anyway, this is the iterary of my trip to cairns, going to go for my long awaited for, scuba course!! WooWhoo~~~!!!

So from tommorrow, 14 July till 20 July, I won't be in front of my computer. (FINALLY!!!)

Had this thing planned long long time ago, well there was some slight changes. The person accompanying me wasn't suspose to be a guy, infact, he wasn't suspose to be in the picture at all. But things have change, and please, I did not change into a gay!

Well just that I don't have anyone special to go with, so that's about it.

But the bloody "ang mo" type my name wrongly!!! Stupid ass!! There's such a big difference between pressing a 'W' and a 'Y'.

And I bought a new earphone from Phillips for my MP3 player. It has been a long long time since I last use my player, I missed my player so much.

AUD$30 well spend on the earphone, expensive but I hope the comfort and quality is enough cover the price.

SURPRISE!! A new look!!

2005-07-07T12:02:00.000+08:00

WooWooh~~~~!!!!

Finally!! I finished my proto-type blog skin!! Not much effort put into designing this whole thing just trying to experiment on the software. For those copycats, I am using Adobe GoLive CS.

Now, what I need is comments for you people! I realise that either I am too sick or I haven't been using my creativity area for too long, I totally lost touched in creating something nice. So, please please please, leave me some comments.

Be quick, I got lots of photos to blog but I need to get these sorted out first.

sick..

2005-07-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

Hello people. It's has been a long long time since I last blog. Forgive me!! I just doesn't like my blog skin anymore!! Got too sick of looking at it everytime I try to pen something down.

Tommorrow, results will out. Really hope that this day will not come. I remember the last time I received my results, my heart almost stop pounding.

Oh gosh, I feel I am writting crap, my head is spinning a little. Took my temperature awhile ago just now, 37.9C. I am sick le! My most dreaded thing is here. I don't know why hasn't the medicine been working, I started swallowing those stuff on saturday when I start to feel the slightest bit of gonna fall sick. I think u can carry on the story from there...

Now, what I desire. If there's any girl who come and take care of me now, I think it's definitely gonna melt my heart. So people out there what u waiting for??

AARRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! can't take it anymore hafta go lie down, struggling to concentrate.

Don't worry, I will take care of myself.. :)

It's fated!!

2005-06-25T02:36:00.000+08:00

Ah!! fuck!! I just spoil my blog layout.. dunnoe what's wrong..
so it's fated that I can't blog.. ;p

Technologies don't like me recently, I also spoil my winamp player, Win XP is corrupted, max out 80GB of HDD, mp3 player's earphone is not working, ...........

HAR!! till I get things fix ba..

and listening to mp3 in WMP is no shiok!! fuck!!

Finally...

2005-06-25T02:31:00.000+08:00

Why am I still not blogging when my last paper was on tues??

I have no idea, wanna share lots of stuff, but don't know where to start. Thank you all for visiting, so I shall promise I write something down real soon.

Now, sleep time!!

Cheryann, Be strong k??

Exams

2005-06-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

9 more days till my first paper.

17th June - Digital System Design
18th June - Maths ODE (morning)
18th June - Programming in the Large (Evening! Management sux at scheduling exams!!)
21th June - Computational Methods in Electrical Engineering (LAST PAPER!! YEAA!!)

Will not blog again till then.. :)

Wish me lots of luck!!

A walk down Memory Lane

2005-06-03T01:54:00.000+08:00

I believe this entry will be one of my most personal entry. In the previous 2 or more blog entries, or maybe you see somewhere around this ~~interesting~~ boring and glooming site, I have mention about "her"! If you weren't ~~a fan~~ to read my blog from the beginning till now. ~~You are losing out something BIG!!~~

Since Deep Throat (not porn mind you) has been revealed, I shall reveal the mysterious "her"! (sorry she don't have a blog that I know of)

Her name is Liping. (Hencefore in this entry, she will be known as lp or her ok? lazy to type out her name lah!)

It was July 1999 (if my memory doesn't fail me), I remember it was a 8am practical class (I was doing my 2nd year of my 3.5 years in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.) so as I make my ~~all time favourite GRAND ENTRANCE~~ entrance secretly as I was late. As a typical ~~hormone raging~~ teenager, the first thing to look out for is ~~chio bu~~ gers. But sadly, in a class full of ~~very successful~~ future engineers, there wasn't much female invovlement! I saw this ger. erm.. It wasn't love at first sight but she consider someone who is above average! Oh ya, she has very nice electrifying eyes. FYI, I am someone who will go "soft" (don't think too much har!!) for gers with nice nice eyes, it's the first thing I notice too.

For that semester, I think I have 2 modules same as her. Have I mentioned that I HATE morning class? anyway these 2 modules were my most dreaded modules! (if you still do not know what I am talking about, ~~you can just bang yourself into the wall~~ the 2 modules were schedule in early morning!) So you can safely assume that I am always late for class, the weird part is actually I feel myself been ~~bio~~ watched all the time!

Enough of the boring part, now for the ~~even more boring~~ interesting part. That semester just comes to an end with lots of conversation exchange, both verbally and in ICQ. Oh ya there still the alphanumeric paging, something like sms. It was nearing our exams when she start to have hiccups with her relationship with the then bf. erm.. cannot remember what's the issue about, anyway our conversation increase dramatically, as ~~her excuse was to have~~ she need someone to listen to her sorrows. Been a super kind and helpful person, I offered generously on my listening power! *Good Listener I am*

As mentioned, exams are nearing, and also been a super kind and helpful + smart person (I know.. Please stop , ~~praising~~ puking), I kindly offer my service to coach her in her studies. I was rather worried about her, as everyone who have suffer from a bad relationship breakups tends to have sucidal tendercies. And she is someone who is very close to the edge, lucky with the help of a super kind and helpful + smart person, she manage to ride over that period. (I remember then, there was a lot of bad gossip about me. It's only I choose to be ignorant over it because I know myself more than you do, you ~~fucking~~ stupid gossipers!)

Everyday, we will stay in school till late to do our revision. I remembered there was once late at night, I have to go inside the ladies, b'cause she was inside the toilet for more than half hour. What shocked me is that she was sitting on the bench and crying her heart out. In a hand was a snapped ring which she use to cut her wrist, but not deep enough to inflict any harm, just some minor scratches.

After that night she was even closer (not physically) to me. One night before our last paper, which is a killer Maths paper, she was crying badly again.

Re-enactment of that conversation. Cannot totally remember the exact details, but something like this.

Her:*sob sob* I don't want to study anymore. *sob sob*
Me: *very soft concern voice* Why not? You already came so far. If you don't want to study what do you want to do? Don't be silly..
Her:*sob* I don't want to study anymore. I wanna go oversea.
Me: Then where you wanna go?
Her: *sob* Dunnoe. Africa? Just somewhere away from this horrible place..
Me: *Giggling* AFRICA? Why would you wanna go there? *Act cute voice* Wait the lion eat u up..
(conversation dreads on a little on this topic, and my preparation is only 60% done and the time wee hours in the morning.)
Me: *irritated* Now stop been silly, go and study!
Her: Why are you so mean to me?
Her: *sobbing a little harder* k.. bye!
(*Clicked* Line was cut off)
(Me decide to visit the toilet to ~~shit~~ take a dump.)
(5 mins into my business, phone ring, I was still in the toilet. How to pick up the call right?)
(Followed by a few alphanumeric message in my pager.)
(Came out of toilet after 15 mins of pleasure! surprise to see the number of page. cannot remember the contents. something like why am I ignoring her and been mean to her, so page her to call me. No handphone that time lah.)
*Ring Ring*
Her: *sobing very hard!* Can you stop treating me so good?
Me: (Thoughts: Weirdo few minutes ago still said I mean!) *Ultra gentle voice* Why? What's wrong? I treat everyone the same..
Her: *sobbing even harder* Can you stop treating me so good?
Me: Why?
Her: *Crying and mumbling* Can you stop treating me so good? 'cause I scare I fall in love with you.
Me: Har?!?! (almost choked on my saliva!)
Her: *trying to control sobbing* Can you stop treating me so good? 'cause I scare I fall in love with you.
Me: erm.. I treat everyone the same. (no experience of this before) Don't be silly. Now go back to your studies.
(another 10 mins of consoling her)
Her: Why are u avoiding my qns?
Me: (kaoz.. the skill is not there yet.) erm.. your question I will give you an answer after the exams. now go n concentrate on your studies.

After the exams we hang out quite often together, maybe because I need an activity partner and she need someone by her side.

A month later, after my probation of her, we finally got together! It was 30 Nov 1999.

We keep our relationship in a really low profile, all thanks to the ~~fucking~~ tongue wagging community! Lucky I don't want to spoil this entry, if not I can ~~curse~~ blog until the cows come home and not done with it!

Our relationship has a lot of ups and downs, but most importantly we held our hands together to pass through those difficult hurdles. Some major hurdles can't really the others.

Hurdle 1: I enlist into NS when no one will be there for her.
Hurdle 2: She sign up for police training. No one there for me.
Hurdle 3: My Army detactment in Thailand.
Hurdle 4: My intentions of going overseas for studies.

During these times while I was with her, I finally notice how colourful the world is. They might be true about love make the world goes round. But there are always the downside of everything. Here are some major mistakes that I have done.

Mistake 1: Go clubbing and got to know other gers. (yes! I am a jerk!!) X 2(Twice the jerk I am. I regret my actions)
Mistake 2: Been tooooo close to her number one most hated enemy but one of my good friend.
Mistake 3: Smoke and drink too much!

I think there are lots n lots of other wrong doings done by me but it doesn't matter anymore.

On 7 Nov 2004 (3 days before my first paper in Uni), she left me.

I was devasated! I couldn't concentrate on anything. The feeling of helplessness filled my heart totally! I tried to cry but no tears came out, I did not realise the importance of her till the day I flew over to Australia. The feeling of been far away was unbearable needless to said loneliness and to start everything from scratch!

I was in a state of denial! For the first time in my life, I wasn't smiling, I wasn't talking. I think if not for very encouraging friends, I would have just slipped into depression.

I couldn't wait to fly back home!

Flying back home is another chain of bad news one after another!(That's another story to talk about! But I will never bring up ever! too sad to be brought up.) Year 2004 was the worst year ever in my life!

I am now sicked and tired of all these self torture. I realise I am just too childish. Especially after reading this blog! (If you people are still with me, please click on it and read it. STRONGLY RECOMMEND!!)

I have decided to let go of everything!! I shall once again return to my ~~buaya~~ ~~casanova~~ self.

Today 3rd June is her Birthday! I hereby wish her a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY! And I want to thank her for all the selfless givings for me. She is a very special someone where she will always remembered by me.

Her Birthday gift is all replaced by this simple card with not much of contents.

My blog will go through some major reconstructions!

I have decided!

2005-05-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

I have decided and sent out the gift! Wanna know what did I send out? And how it looks like?
Stay tuned......

Special thanks to Janice, Debbie and Juliana. (Thanks for pointing out. :) )

I think she will actually love this the most.. but too bad... ;p

Florists are just out to make people A LOT poorer!!

2005-05-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

After spending 2.5 hours researching on net for gift ideas, I finally ended up with these few products! (How I wish I have the same motivation on my school work!) Click on the pictures to see more details on the items, including the price.

I think Singapore Florist are just out to make people alot poorer! This is no joke! The cheapest thing that I can get is nothing less than s$50! Here are few choices (in order of preferences) which I am thinking of getting. Need a bit of feedback, if there's any.

This, I think it's the nicest of all!

Something different for a start!

This really isn't that bad for the price I am getting. It also comes with a bouquet of Ferrero Rocher.

I have no idea why this picture is name after Mothers' Day. Does this really look motherly?

This is the last choice, as she has already receive this bouquet a few times before!

If you haven't notice, all of the above contains Sunflower or chocolate.

Really appreciate if you let me know your opinions but do it quick, I've got a week for this.

3.30am in the cold winter night!

2005-05-24T01:45:00.000+08:00

It's 3.30am in a really cold winter night. Think it can easily hit 12C!

Hasn't been sleeping really well these few days, always worrying about school work the moment I shut my eyes!

Don't really know what's interesting to put in here. So I am just going to crap my way through! Oh ya, thanks people for coming in here so often, recently my counter has jump abit! And very often, the people who visit are all constant, meaning the same IP address. Thanks people for taking so much interest! *Muacks* Love n Miss you, Guys!

Next friday is 'her' Birthday, those people who know who I am refering to, do send your regards. Thanks in advance! Been trying to look for something suitable to send back to singapore, but don't really know what I want to send or even what to get! Any ideas?

Sigh, been really sick of this waiting game. Don't know what the hell am I thinking of? *Fairytale Land don't exists!*

(After starring into the monitor for 15 mins)

Not much of craps coming out of me tonite, shall crap again someother day! Good Night!

After so long, the pain still lingers around! I think I need a Life!!

The downs n ups of life

2005-05-18T12:04:00.000+08:00

Do you ever feel that sometimes things just doesn't go your way? No matter how much effort and hardwork you put in, it just keep going on the opposite direction!

I believe this is the period where the stress factor will seriously seep into your soul and causing hell lots of unbalance emotions running wild inside you. I think you get what I mean!

Recently, I have been thinking a lot! (who don't) It always revovle around the same question that why am I here? What's the purpose of been here? You guys can easily reply, for studies, for a better future, bla bla bla. I've heard enough of all this!

The question is why do I ever want to choose this miserable path of a "brighter" future? I don't see anywhere that a degree or perhaps a good degree will be equivalent to a better future or job!

There are countless of degree holders that are unemployed, or even if they are employed, are they living in a life that they want? Or living in a life, just to make end meet? How many can tell me that they are truly happy with what they have now?

Start thinking people! Is this what we really want?

Bewarned! Lots of think causes lots of grey hair!!

May the force be with you!

A Blur F**k Terrorist and A Drunkard

2005-05-14T20:01:00.000+08:00

Below is the link to a video clip about a blur fuck terrorist and a drunkard.

Warning:
The Content might be offending to some, it might contain racism and political jokes.
Everything inside the video is purely fictional, if any part of the video resemble of someone in reality is purely coincident. The owner of the blog or anyone holds no responsible over this video.

WATCH AT YOUR OWN RISK!!

Broadband Streaming.
NarrowBand Streaming.

edit: the contents has been removed, as requested by the leading actress.

REMEMBER WATCH AT YOUR OWN RISK!!

NO ONE WILL BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYTHING!!

I wonder will I get sued for this?

2005-05-10T12:43:00.000+08:00

Since I got complain for not blogging, then I shall just write something now.

You must be wondering why there's a apology blog? It's there cause I make one of my housemate super super pissed off. Since it's my fault then I just apologise, that's why. Now the time is 2.44pm in Brisbane and yet I have not taken my brunch! These few weeks has been really really busy, not don't have time to eat, just that I don't remember eating. Just too preoccupied with the things I have to do!

Last week was quite a bad week, I remembered a power tripped causing me to lose 70% of my assignment to dissappear into thin air an hour before it's due! You can imagine how I scream like a girl! But anyway it's already over, so no point crying over spill milk!

So anyway, I was reading Mr Brown blog and came across this article about singapore education. Apparently, someone who is studying oversea wrote to him about how screw up our education system is! And I think I have to agree to it totally!! For those who hasn't had the chance of an alternative education, here's what is it about.

In Singapore, maybe for my case, I was spoonfed all the way from kindergarden to Polytechnic! Whatever the teacher or lecturer speak is about how it would appear in exams. I think I can safely said that if you were to pay close attention to classes and lecture, most likely you will be able to attempt the papers in the exam. Although I still prefer the spoonfed method, it's just makes my life easier! As you know I'm not a very hardworking person!

Whereas, over here in australia, what the lecturers talk about is the theory behind it. They will actually quote real life example of how things is suspose to work. They will want you to understand the concept of things. You will also notice that it's people from the western countries that is asking question and debating about issues. But only to singaporeans, we will just go nodding our head!!

The other article from Mr Brown is about Singapore Casino!(You have to download the mp3, it's their conversation to it!) It's quite hilarious about how Singapore make it sure a way that there is no Casino! Contradicting right? They called it Integrated Resort! You see there's no Casino in any of it!

So Mr Brown and gang was mentioning that Singapore should might as well integrate a brothel into it! And the best part, the brothel will be run by NTU'see' (For foreigners, NTUsee is our Trade Union! Go search the internet). So the brothel been part of NTU'see' must have a nice name right? For taxi in singapore we call it COMFORT, then the brothel shall be named as COMFORT WOMEN!

So everytime when you visit the brothel, the pimp or prostitue will ask, "ni shi member mah?" (translating : Are you a member?) So you can top up your link points, then maybe you can change your link point for condoms, viagra etc.

Imagine this, on the right u have Casino(opps, Singapore got no casino, only "Intergrated Resort"), the left you will have a brothel, and the middle you can find yourself a NTUC supermarket!

Remember Singapore is a hub!

2005-05-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

I am sorry..

My deepest Condolences.

2005-05-02T13:58:00.000+08:00

A minute of silence for the People's President.

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Singapore's former President, Wee Kim Wee died early on Monday morning (5.10am) at his home from complications due to a relapse of prostate cancer. He had been admitted to hospital two days ago after being sick for one month but had asked to return to his home.

He was 89 years old. His eldest son, 68-year-old Bill Wee, told Channel NewsAsia that Dr Wee's body will be placed in the Istana for the public to pay their last respects from Tuesday till Thursday.

And he will be cremated on Friday.

Mr Bill Wee said his father had expressed a wish not to have his remains interred at the Kranji War Cemetery.

Instead, he wished to be buried at the public cemetery in Mandai, where ordinary Singaporeans are buried.

Dr Wee was President from 1985 to 1993.

He was known as a People's President, displaying a genuine concern for others and a natural warmth that touched many lives.

Born in 1915, Dr Wee rose from a humble station in life, starting out as a clerk in the Straits Times before becoming a reporter. He also worked for the United Press Association and was its Chief Correspondent in the 1950s.

Then came his worldwide scoop in 1966: an interview with a General Suharto of Indonesia who announced to the world that he wanted to end the three-year long Confrontation between Indonesia and Malaysia.

It seemed natural that with his many contacts in the region made during his years a journalist, he moved on to the next stage of his career as a diplomat.

For his contributions as High Commissioner to Malaysia, a post he held for 7 years, he was awarded the Meritorious Service Medal in 1979.

He went on to become Ambassador to Japan and South Korea.

After retiring from the diplomatic service in 1984, he took up a new post as Chairman of the then Singapore Broadcasting Corporation.

A year later, he became President, determined to make the Presidency as accessible as possible to ordinary Singaporeans.

His genuine concern for others and natural warmth touched many lives.

He retired from the Presidency in Sept 1993, citing his age, health and Constitutional amendments which provided for an Elected President.

Dr Wee said it was best for Singapore that a new man was put in place.

He remained active in community work after retirement, and will be fondly remembered by Singaporeans from all walks of life as a man who always had a smile for everyone.

Courteousy From Channel News Asia Singapore.

Happy Birthday!! >> Liting

2005-04-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

hmm.. call it coincident, but I called it The Curse of Blogging!! I have no idea why it always happen, the exact moment that I type in a title and about to start to blog, someone will want me to part away from my computer and to do something else. Which always ended up unable to complete my blog. Just now was about juliana who need to submit her assignment when it start to rain a few drops of water. Anyway that's not the main reason why I am here.

Today 26 April is the birthday of this special friend, Liting. Hmm.. Remember her nickname in the old days as "gang shao", I have no idea or cannot remember how did this nickname surface, it just happen that one everyone just start calling her by the nick. It was pretty embarassing for the both of us, I remembered that the nick went on for quite sometime till the extend that some teachers knew about it. Just can't be help, teachers are also human, so for a normal human being the tendency for one to gossip is quite high and maybe my profile was quite high during that time. Just for your info, my profile was high in a good way, although the bad profile was about the same, but I was remembered for my good points. ;p

Liting, she is someone who I can really chat with, it seems like the two of us operate on the same frequency. The common thing about us is that we have difficulty expressing our emotions or feelings (don't get me wrong, is not express feeling for each other), so when we talked about all the unhappiness stuff in life, we will have no idea what we are talking about but amazingly enough the listening party will always have no difficulty understanding. It feels really really nice to talk to her, don't need to crack brain to have a point send across.

One obvious thing about her is that she is so so so skinny, and you will be amazed by the food portion that she consumed. Even myself have problem trying to finish the things that she eat, and yet she can finish everything in a jiffy. But after all those, she will definitely looked like she's 2 months pregnant.

Lots more things to write about her but I don't have the TIME!!! I feel so so so taxed out! In previous post, I was talking about the right time to call right?? Well, anytime from now onwards will be the right time? I wonder which will give up first? My brain or my body??

STRESS STRESS STRESSSSSS!!!!!!!

Hope that I got the strength and time to blog again. If you don't see anything online, means most probably I'm piled under tons of books, and most likely will be eating, shitting and doing everything else there. :( One more thing, tommorrow is birthday of JinSheng, so Happy Birthday to you, bro!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITING!!

Time flies!!

2005-04-24T01:55:00.000+08:00

Why is it time always flies away when you least expected it? Don't seems to be able to get my life up to date, there's always been something that I have yet to be done. Feel really really tiring.

This has been a week full of dissappointments, at least dissappointments from my academic areas. Remember that I had an mid-sem paper a few weeks ago? Well, didn't really manage to score well for it and to add to the agony, the weightage for the test is rather heavy, so that means I have to put in extra more effort for my studies!

Then it was the stupid JAVA assignment, spend almost the whole week not sleeping and trying to get it working, (this really makes me HATE java big big time) and in the end I have to submit something that is only partial working. And I think I need to go for anger management for my anger whenever I do programming, especially when things wasn't going my way. I will always have the urge to just pick up the monitor and throw it out through the window! And so fortunately and unfortunately, my monitor is the CRT type, so it's really heavy.

Hmm.. Spoke to Liting on the phone a few nights ago, as her birthday was coming and as you know I have memory of a goldfish, so I have to wish her an early birthday just incase that I forgot that she exists. I think I have not talk to her for a very long time, cannot even remember when was the last time that I chat with her over the phone. Think all this while I really have been neglecting a lot of people. It was a really joyful talk with her, hmm.., I guess she sort of lifted a little of my stress away, but I still prefer those moments where people just magically call me at the right time, right moment and talk to me *Hint Hint*. You know those moments when you really needed someone, moments that you feel really lost. Oh ya, Liting birthday's is on the 26 April, and I think (If I did not remember wrongly) I need to write an blog entry about her. Do not know if I have the time or strength to do it?

Draft exam timetable are out, the bad thing, ALL MY PAPERS ARE SO CLOSED TOGETHER!!! I have 1 paper on the 17th, 2 on the 18th (1 in the morning and 1 in the evening) and the last one on the 21st! I think I will definitely die of exhaustion by 21st! So people I need your help to help me pray for a better timetable! I really can't survive this ridiculous timetable! Please pray for me, be it you are christian, catholic, muslim, taoist, or the latest cockcroach god! Just pray for me for a better one k? I'm thanking you in advance! THANKS!!

But the good thing is that I'll be free from the 21st onwards! So those people that wants to see me or wants to come over for tour, it's time to make your reservation with the travelling agency and me, REMEMBER limit vacancies, and works on first come first serve basis! So it's time to dig out whatever money you have and head to the travel agency!

My shoutbox is currently out..

2005-04-21T02:02:00.000+08:00

AAHHHHHH!!!! my shoutbox is out!! here what they commented on their server. hopefully it's not their fault coz the service that they provide has been doing very well, did not experience any problem and most of all, IT'S FREE!!!

Apr 20, 2005:

I have received the notification from my host regarding ShoutMix. They have mentioned that ShoutMix is using too much resources and causing the server to slow down. This is considered as resource abuse.

My options are either to close down ShoutMix or move to a dedicated one. I am unable to afford a dedicated server so I will try my best to maintain this service.
At the moment I just want to close the shoutbox for a while and check whether if it is ShoutMix that causes the whole server load thingy. If the server load drop dramatically after I close down the shoutbox, it is my fault and I will need to move ShoutMix somewhere else. If not, it could be caused by other sites on the same server so I can stay with this host.
Sorry everyone for the interuptions. This is not a very good news for myself too.

I HATE JAVA

2005-04-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

I SIMPLY JUST HATE JAVA!!!
NO MORE JAVA FOR ME!! JAVASCRIPT MAYBE BUT NOT JAVA!!!

Stop Procastinating

2005-04-16T01:25:00.000+08:00

I have no idea what's the hell is wrong with this week!! It's a week of mood swing, feeling as though I am having PMS!! Everything is going so wrong yet so right! And what the hell am I talking about? Feeling so right and wrong about everything?? get a grip!!!

This hasn't been a really productive week, the to do list are always so long and ever increasing and yet I have been procastinating the whole f**king week!! Looks like I can spend my weekend trying to make up for everything that I have yet to done.

Feelings of missing something in my life is getting stronger and stronger, don't really like this feeling. It's definitely messing up my life quite a LOT, this really brought me back closer to that very faithful day. I always thought that I have walked away from it, but the fact is that I have been burying things up quite a bit. Quite worry that one day things will start crawling to haunt me again. Think I can't really type with all these craps messing my brain. (Gonna take a break now, and continue once I have clear up my thoughts.)

Back! Brrr.. Outside is real cold and freezing, teeth just don't stop chattering. Lucky, my room isn't that cold and feel so cosy. It's now 3 am in Australia, my sleeping time is so mess up, can't really sleep before midnight and infact this is the period when I feel most awake! Let me back track so that I can make myself a little clearer. This whole just isn't in the mood to do anything, everything just seems to slip throught, and perhaps, it just the missing thoughts that is making my life so difficult to pass by. Feel as though there is 2 different person in me, fighting, and the winner will make me do "he" wants to do. And sad thing to say is that I saw no winner in them. sigh..

The worst of the week should be last Sunday or should I said Monday early morning, and lucky enough and unfortuately I had someone who is of worse plight than me, so I took the car out and went for spin. Emotions were getting into me a little and not realising I am driving a very old unserviced car and not to mention it was drizzling. So there I was driving a little reckless until I was reminded of the car and road conditions. And it definitely brings me back to reality and to drive with caution. Don't think I will blog about what happen that night, but it's one night I will remember. Don't worry things wasn't as bad as you think, and I did not meet with a close accident or a near death!

hmm.. think this blog is gonna bored everyone out big time. I think I seriously have problems writting my feelings down or even voicing my feelings out. But nevermind, those people who know me well will have no problem translating what I want to say! ;)

I should just stop here, feels much better now. Thanks.

Return of the Liz..

2005-04-09T16:45:00.000+08:00

Forgot to include this just now. My pet is always coming back to find me. I've caught it peeping at me serveral times.

What a Hectic Hectic Week..

2005-04-09T12:19:00.000+08:00

For all horny guys and gers out there.. here something a little sizzling for you - xiaxue blog. Apparently she went to some lingerie fashion show.

Ok enough of the lingeries, back to here!! Your purpose here is to kill time and read about me not her. This has really been a real real hectic week, whole week filled with test, reports, labs and project! And the best part is I have skip 95% of this week lecture, meaning I only attend ONE lecture for the whole week! Just so so tired and exhausted from all the things that I have to do. I think I've done pretty badly for the test, quite a demoralising paper, but it's also a wake up call for me! Enough of complaints in here, if not you readers (you know who you are!! ;p) will said my blog is too sad and too much of complains.

hmm.. This month is filled with birthdays of alot of friends, think they are going to party around without me. Let me wish them a very Happy Birthday to:-
Debbie (I was suspose to blog about her but she totally FORBID me!!)
Eugene
Desmond & Khailing share the same Birthday
Kai Xin
Porky
MUM
I think there's lots more to add, just that I can't remember. Anyway Happy Birthdays to all those who I fail to mention in the list. Lots of sorries..

Don't think I have mention to you guys about my goldfish memory, right? I think I suffering from partial amnesia, always just forget about things that I have to do or just no memories about it. Any doctors out there can recommend something for curing it or not, don't feel really nice when I forget about things.

Last night, I went to kill chicken(KTV) for the first time in the history of been in australia! And surprisingly, their song is very updated! Sound system is good, environment is good, price is good, drinks are nice but the microphone is a little faulty.

Really enjoy myself last night, even better than the time where I went clubbing. At the peak of the night, I really didn't feel I was in a foreign country, I feel so so much at home. But reality hit me fast as soon as the session is over :(. I think I should do this KTV more often, it feels really really good, love it. I don't even care it's hurtful for other people ear, I just want to vent my frustrations! Only one word can describing last night adventure - SHIOOOOOK!! hmmm.. think the effects is still lingering in my body, nice.

Think it's time for me to face the harsh reality again, another full workload week ahead! 加油! 加油! 加油!

流泪手心

2005-04-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

云飘在天空浪在海流动
这世界太多无法掌握的梦
你站在风中你是自由的
生命有太多不得不分的痛

当你将离别握在我手心我听见爱被悄悄捏碎的声音
你不懂你不要的我的心会随你松开的手而喊停
我试着微笑试着拥抱在每一秒

我不想看见闭上的眼睛害怕你最后化成泪溜出手心
你给过的承诺我怎么能不放手
当你诚实诉说他的爱多辽阔
这是我的手它牵过你往事中度过
这漫长的路不该走到寂寞

当你将离别握在我手心我听见爱被悄悄捏碎的声音
你不懂你不要的我的心会随你松开的手而喊停
我试着微笑试着拥抱在每一秒

我不想看见闭上的眼睛害怕你最后
当你将离别握在我手心我听见爱被悄悄捏碎的声音
你不懂你不要的我的心会随你松开的手而喊停

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chinese version of the song in this blog. A lot of people prefer the chinese than the english, but I think the english is better.

Oh ya, I was suspose to apologise to Huliana and Melvin(bf) in the previous entry, for not leaving them outside my house where I was having dinner elsewhere. Anyway this thing had her talking for more than a month, and I think she will keep going on.

Sorry Hu & Mel..

A girl called Huliana..

2005-04-02T03:05:00.000+08:00

Ok people don't get too excited for the time being. Just bear with me for a little while ok? I will get to the part as soon as I finish complaining about my life.

Ok, wasn't really that successful that I ask whoever that visit my blog to leave a message behind, or maybe my blog only attract just the handful people, and totally no strangers at all? if that's the case, when can I get nominated in Best Blog Award? Think I will have a long long way to go. The winner of the best asia blog is xiaxue, she can really really bitch well. But if my blog were only visited by just the handful of people, I really want to thank them. If I were to get 500 hits, and if I have only 5 person who comes in regularly to read, then they have an average of 100 visit in 3 months. And if my maths did not fail me, they will be visiting my blog almost once everyday. WOAH!! I am really really impressed. Didn't really realise it till I calculate it. THANK YOU PEOPLE!! I am really touched, I wonder am I able to squeeze out some tears? hmm.. answer is NO! Soorry..

To all the clubbers that exist in here, I went CLUBBING for the first time in Australia!! Not a bad experience afterall, the music were a little sucky though. The disco name is called "Family", I think the name don't really suit the place. The place is 3 storeys high, 1st floor is where all the happening stuff emerge. It's definitely the best place for people who loves Techno, it's playing Techno for the whole NIGHT!! 2nd floor will be for people to chill out, nothing much in there except to drink. And the 3rd floor will be R&B music which I don't really like. There's also a small corner to chill out too, that place is really nice, I mean the concept you can never find it in Singapore, the bar counter is literally make of ice, not really the whole thing, but the tabletop of the counter. If Coyote Ugly were to filmed there, I bet bar top dancing will be banned forever, imagine Piper Perabo (the actress of the show) slipping off the bartop the moment she jump onto it.

Anyway, the crowd there was GOOD!! International students night out, you can think of gals n guys from Japan, Malaysia, Hong Kong, Korea, etc etc. You name it and there should be there. It's a night where my eyes has never taken a rest and never stay on a person for more than 5 mins. (no, I do not stare at ppl constant, if that's what you are thinking of..)

Now for the main course, people I like you to meet Huliana aka Ah Lian. Remember the cute drawing which look like from the hands of a 3 yr old kid? You might have guess it, it's from HER!! Laugh all you can people!! I am risking my life in blogging this down, so you better appreciate it! remember previously I have mention that I met this couple in the airport? This is the the girlfriend I was talking to. I don't think anyone is interested about what happen after the airport right? Although I was suspose to continue talking about it, if you are interested in what happen just leave a message and I promise a blog on it immediately, ok?

Woah!! 4.45am!! I think I better cut this short, anyway a picture speak a thousand words right? So take a look at the pictures. Will comments on her some other time when I have the time.

This is her, if you are wondering why the picture has been edited, cause the original one was too badly taken, and this is the only one with her face clearly shown.

And yes, that's my bed she is sleeping on (Focus! don't let your thoughts anyhow roam!!), I don't know why, everyone seems to like my bed alot. They just keep coming and sleeping on it, don't even need invitation.

That's her when she is drunk! and yes, it's my bed again. (ok ppl, try to keep ur mind from roaming again!!) I am so jealous of my bed, I think its attraction for people is waaay high up!!

To keep myself alive, I have no choice but to edit this photo. If not you guys can have a really good laugh at the pic. Anyway that's about all. Oh Gosh! 5 am and I am still blogging away, think I shall stop here. Good night...

I will intro another person who keep complaining I have never talk about her at all in my blog. Which is true, I am so sorry.. will write 1 whole entry on you ok?

Come back for more..........

Finally a break from a hectic life..

2005-03-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

HALOZ PPL!! it's me again.. i know it has been a while since i last blog, i wonder how come got no one ask me if i'm still alive?? isn't there someone in this world who is bother about anything? anyway i wonder how many people came and read my blog?? :P

hmm.. lets have a test.. can everyone who came in to read my blog leave a message (which you can find at the left bottom of the screen..) or comments (which you can do it by clicking on the comments link at the end of the blog entry..).

for all my fans out there(hmm.. if you exist..), if you are wondering what took me so long to blog out something.. well, one reason will be, I AM SUPER BUSY FROM THE HECTIC LIFE OF UNI!! and the other is, i got nothing interesting to tell u people.. everything has become so rountine.. wake up, school, study, eat, daily chores, study, sleep.. feel kinda miserable.. and one more thing will be, i am someone who is very bad in time management, i find that time always just through without me noticing..

a little update of me, i am now having my mid sem break, that means one whole freaking week of holiday, you might be thinking "shiok" right?? well, not really, because after the break will be test, and deadline of everything. i think i will probably just die when the holidays are over.. so don't be surprise that this blog were to become stagnant..

ok for the past few days i have been enjoying a little, but seems like things are not going really that smoothly. i went to Surfers' Paradise, Gold Coast. intention of going there is to enjoy the beach right?? and probably become "beach" boys, and watch all the bikini babes running around right?? BUT.. it rain!! not that drizzle type of rain, but it's a FREAKING thunderstorm!!! (FYI rainning in Australia is very rare, needless to say thunderstorm.)

so in the end, no "beach" boys, no bikini babes, no nothing.. a little more to add to all the agony.. before gold coast, i went "crabbing" (catch crab, not talk crap..) and sadly, no crabs that night, so been a typical kiasu Singaporean, we decide to leave the cage submerge for the night and collecting the next day.. but we did not, so leaving it for one more night.. so on the third night, we went down, we have 2 cages, sad thing is 1 was stolen, the other was stuck in the sea bed, pulling only cause the line to snap.. so at the end of the whole weekend, nothing was gained.. SAD!!

some photos for u guys to enjoy, oh ya next blog i will intro you guys to a girl.. don't know why, keep pestering me to blog somthing about her.. hmm.. think will be quite hilarious!! stayed tune!!

picture taken at a lake in uni, it has lots of ducks, geese and other birds. so whenever our bread turn mouldy we will feed it.. and they(those birds) will come chasing after you for the food..

Welcome to Surfers' Paradise!

this is hw gloomy the sky is.. not a good day for beach.. have i mention that it's so freaking cold that i am shivering a little?? and the worst things is that the ppl i went wif r all couples, all of them hugging each other for body warmth.. only me shivering alone.. hai... SAD Sad sad.... :( bad weather so never take much pictures..

they have very very nice beach.. kinda miss the waves..

preview for the next blog entry.. wanna know what is it?? stay tuned, hmm, or should i say come back for more...

I'm so overloaded!!

2005-03-19T14:19:00.000+08:00

wah lau.. i'm so overloaded and tired.. think will blog again soon...

STRESS is creeping in...

2005-03-11T14:28:00.000+08:00

The end of second week of sch.. well almost the end of it, i still got a lecture to attend later but still deciding if i shld attend the lecture.. HeY!! dun scold me been lazy huh, i am already back from sch from a few lessons, it's my break nw..

jz to backtrack a little on previous blog entry, coz it wasn't really successful when i try to blog.. blogger doesn't seems to like me, keep losing wat i have pen down.. it's easy to said "Just Rewrite it" but in actual fact it's quite tedious (is this the correct spelling?) to do so.. coz i feel every entry is part of my life, i can't repeat it twice.. aarrrrgggghhhh.. this is getting boring...

let's jz bring this blog into a lighter note.. something i feel really really foolish, stupid has happen to me yesterday.. ok the sch rule is that we have to wear proper shoes when entering lab for prac.. ok i was doing preparation for the prac till quite late the previous nite, so when i wake up the next day, u can said i am prepared for the prac rite?? infact i was! except for the part that i am a little late for the class.. here i am, gng to sch for lectures, meetings and stuffs.. it was until 10 mins b4 the prac that i realise my feet was quite airy, and i keep thinking that i have left out something.. so instinct tell me to look at my feet, and i go OMG!! (I am wearing slippers, err i am not that idiot to go ard barefoot) prac starts in 10 mins time (the prac wasn't even easy to do, and i need all the time that i can have), i'm dead for sure.. so i practically walk half, run half back home jz to change into a FREAKING pair of shoes.. u can imagine my excitement thruout the ordeal.. Thank goodness my hse is oni 15 mins walk away(one way).. and amazingly i completed the whole journey to and fro home in less than 15 mins time..

if my hse were like further away, i think i would have jz bang my head into the wall and hoping the pillar will give way from the impact and cause the building to collapse so tat prac will be cancelled.. i can feel my arse aching from all the fast walking..

oh gosh.. i am so tired!! i jz felt asleep while i blog halfway, and i fail to go to my class.. ok, now u can said me lazy.. but been sleeping for like average of 5 hrs per day is definitely not enuff, so u can roughly judge hw much my stress level is.. i think i seriously hate to study!! dun really have the motivation to study anymore.. hopefully can find the motivation which i have lost during the trip back to singapore.. I MISS MY LIFE IN SINGAPORE!!!

well enuff said, here r some pic to keep u guys occupied.. these r some rare visitors that have visited my hse..

Well, this isn't really rare.. but which cockroach can stop there and post for the camera?? and this is till now the biggest one that i see in this hse.. a lot of them was killed when the pest control guy came..

check this cute little chick.. it was lying sideways on the "backyard", we tot initiatly was an kookaburra chick, coz it was lying directly under a tree.. it's condition was quite bad when we saw it, and it was like struggling (the worst part was that it was struggling ard his shit).. so we panick and quickly pack it into a box and send it to the vet in uni.. but the turn off part was to find out it actually belongs to the baby of a bush turkey (well bush turkey weren't really that adorable when it has fully developed)..

of all the "visitors" that visit us so far, i love this the most.. this is really big and beautiful!! the full length (head to tail) of it is definitely more than a meter long.. we found at the same area that we found the toopid turkey.. tot of keeping it as pet but my hse mates strongly disagree!! but guess wat, it came back to visit me again today..

it was quite curious abt the surroundings too..

we decide to feed it with apples.. and it ate the apples wif greed.. it's brunch i guess.. :)

all this happen in sequence.. this bird land on our balcony's railings, a day after the lizard appear and 2 days after the turkey appear.. hmm.. they think this hse is a reserves... think i will earn quite some money if i were to collect rent from them...

this pic is hot from the camera.. this lizard is real real small.. beri cute.. but the sad part is, it was found in my room.. hopefully it didn't leave any traces of it's "trail" in my room...

interesting hse i have rite?? stay tune for more...................

I'M BACK!!

2005-03-08T00:31:00.000+08:00

Hai, this is the 3rd time i writting this entry liao.. no strength to retype everything again.. perhaps another day.. here's a little treat for ur eyes.. a picture says a thousand words, u judge urself...

oh ya b4 i forgets, Jiahui thank you so much for the support!! Guys n gals ur support is deeply appreciated by me...

Welcome to my House!!

Balcony b4 entering the house.. looks like a chalet rite?? actually it feels like one...

Walkway into the hse..

Nice hotel lookalike corridor to the rooms.. the door at far left(second door) is my room..

nice n big kitchen, with gas stove.. FYI most houses in aust uses electric stove and takes ages to cook even the simplest instant noodles.. so it's really nice to use gas, and oso cut dwn the electric bill...

Finally, the living room.. but too bad this has been converted into another room due to the shortage of rooms...

well, still got lots n lots of interesting stuff that's worth blogging in dwn but blogger doesn't seem to really like me these few days... keep making me retype my entry... is my entry really that sucky till the server can detect and reject it??

hai... till my nz more interesting blog.. got lots more photos coming up... one belong to HULIANA!! be prepare to luff at it...

Finally got a place of my own..

2005-02-21T02:15:00.000+08:00

Hooray!! finally i have found a place for me to settle in le.. well, this news is send to u ppl a little bit though.. err, i got the great news on fri, and nw is like wee hours of monday morning.. can't help it to, either i m too tired to blog or someone will be using my computer.. feel quite sad for my computer, think it has jz bcom the "village bicycle", a bit like kena gang rape in layman term.. I have fail to protect my computer, wat to do? i m staying in a "refugee camp" rite now and the only computer that is able to access the internet is my computer.. Fortunately, i'm gng to format my comp....

dun think i have mention y i have call this current place that i am staying a refugee camp rite? it's bcoz rite nw in this hse we have 4.5 homeless ppl staying here, that will include me too.. ya i m homeless for nw, luckly my frd who has yet to return to aust is kind enuff to lend us his apartment for us to bunk in.. hmm.. there's 1 loving couple who is always so loving, making all other look at them in envy, well they r taking a room.. then there's another ger which will be my future hsemate (we haben officially move in yet) who is taking another room.. and i'm left wif one of the biggest room but the smallest bed, and u might have guess it, i am staying in the living room and sleeping on the sofa, yes that's hw poor thing i am.. although i m the 1st one to start staying in tis hse but hw cum i ended up in living room *sigh*

think i fail to mention the 0.5 person, it's bcoz the hse is so full now, it only have space jz to put his luggage and have to bunk in another hse which belong to my other frd... isn't this so much like a refugee camp?? or the home for the homeless??

wah 4++ in the morning, my eyes really closing liao, think i'll try to blog again tml, if not i have to wait for at least another 2 weeks b4 i can blog again coz i need to wait till my internet connection is up in the new hse.. will upload the pic of my new hse soon, it's really really a big big house.. can't wait to show it off to u guys.. plz wait patiently, i m jz as excited to do everything and blog everything... till my next blog......

Life in australia

2005-02-16T01:33:00.000+08:00

WOW!! i got fan mail!! thank you delun for the support..

it has been 2 weeks since i last blog things out, has been a very very busy week.. i remember the last time i blog i still have like 2 weeks b4 i head back to brisbane for my studies.. time really really flies when u least expected it.. b4 i realise it i am already back in australia..

although for that 2 week i have been really bz meeting up with all my frds, i noe this should be a rather happy event but the feeling was totally different, it's like someone waiting for his deathrow.. well maybe a little too pessimistic but have to exaggerate a little, so that ppl will actually understand how i feel, right?

i remember on that day b4 i flew over, i was having flashback of the memories or shld i said the nightmares of me leaving for the 1st time.. it really really really spoil my mood pretty badly, i wasn't in any mood to do anything, can't hardly crack a smile.. that's hw bad izzit.. i dunnoe y i have this type of feelings maybe i jz can't bear to leave my frds.. ever since the 1st time i left, i seriously learn to appreciate them better.. i think i can never live without frds, frds really really do play a big big part in my life.. *sigh* now back in this foreign country once more, i think i gonna miss them even more, since i have develop such a honourable feelings.. ;p haha...

hmm.. let me put something like in this blog.. on the nite when i was in airport something really really strange and amazing thing happen.. really put me into believing in fate.. here goes, that night i met penguin in the airport (we never arrange it, he dun even noe i flying which is pretty sad).. ok he was there to send his guy frd off for his studies.. and it so happen that his frd is going to the same uni i was gng, well his frd is coming over wif his gf, which the gf is not very closely related to my frd(penguin).. so out of good will i offer to penguin to ask if i can be of any help to his frd anot.. *take note: i have not seen the couple yet* ok so i went on to do my check in and stuff.. ok after abt 1 hr later i saw another frd Kyle (and so happen we did not arrange anything to meet up..) he was there to send off one of his female frd.. and so coincidentally she was gng to the same uni.. *take note: i still have not seen the couple yet* then i was even more surprise that kyle told me that her frd is coming over wif his bf..

with those words, i was totally in a state of denial!! how can it be everything so coincident?? so out of curiousity, i ask if the bf was my the other frd frd (as i noe that person name but bear in mind penguin and kyle are total stranger), and BINGO!! Amazing rite?? well, i was really amazed, so it's fated i were to help this couple.. well that's will be another blog for me to blog.. but right now i need to catch some sleep 1st!! it's 4.40am in brisbane...

TO BE CONTINUE......

Colourful Life once more...

2005-02-05T02:29:00.000+08:00

Feel so long since i lz blog.. was pretty lazy to type in things lately, dun ask me y?? I'm jz plain lazy tat's all!!

Hei my frds complain that my blog is too sad and too depressing liao.. see liao like wanna cry like tat.. hei i'm not!! here's something happy to start wif. hmm.. 1stly congrats delun on his satisfactory pass of his car licence.. *ring ring* hippee got program to go out again.. happy!!

now to continue with my entry.. ok think for this part of the blog will be a little unreadable for some, coz i m 50% drunk.. yes i went drinking again.. but it was great.. i love drinking with my buddies!! it's really enjoyable, a few of us jz sitting down, eating supper, drinking and toking lots n lots of crap.. it's really enjoyable.. i really regret neglecting them for hmm... a few years.. but true will always be there when u need them.. i totally agreed on this!!

yesterday was my lz day of wrk as IT Helpdesk Support and i was in a exceptional good mood, really nothing can stop me frm been chirpy and smiling yesterday.. the feeling was really fantastic.. it has been a real long long time since i ever enjoy this type of mood, i tot this type of mood dun exist in me anymore but until yesterday when i woke up.. the feeling eas totally different, u noe someday when u wake up u will feel everything was in the right place and the right time? this was that feeling but i guess u have to multiply it by 10!! hmm.. maybe the alcohol is making the effect a little bit more enjoyable.. YEAH YEAH!! WHEEEEEEE....... HAPPI HAPPI!!

ok for the oni sad part this week, is my old pentium 3 pass away due to old age.. tot tat day after i try the heart transplant it can wrk.. well it actually wrk for 1 week then it had a major seizure and die... dun think this time round i m able to ressurrect her, oso dun feel like doing so... i shld let it jz rest in peace.. maybe i will keep the organs n wait for a nz comp that require one...

hmm.. this week met up with a beri tall ger.. hehe.. really she is tall!! ok maybe i m short i m not denying it... anywayz dun think quite nice to put things here.. :P~~

ok for the next of whole week i think i will go out on every opportunity.. and i think my schedule is pretty pack till the day i fly... ok so long for nw..

And victor if u r reading this pls give me a msg on my HP., u can get my number frm darren mak.. it's abt the outing that i owe u guys... okie see ya guys....

Song Title "Mary Says"

2005-01-29T02:44:00.000+08:00

How long has it been since I held you near?
How long will it be till I have you right here?
You say that it hurts I can't disagree
But how can I hold on to someone who's leaving me?
And mary says she's gonna be OK
She tells me things are getting busier these days
(She tells me things will be much easier someday)
And mary says she's gonna be alright
You know how much I miss her in my life
(You know how much I'm missing her deep inside)
Goodbye yesterday, I see my dreams walking away
And mary looks just like she did before
Except she don't love me, she don't love me anymore
I could shake your hand or I could kiss you goodbye
But I just might break down looking in your brown eyes
So what happens next do I listen to my mind or heart?
I don't know where to start feeling alright again…….

Some sort related to my feelings right now.... oh ya btw this is the song that u r hearing in my blog..

Left 3 more weeks..

2005-01-22T16:01:00.000+08:00

It has been a long long time since i last update my blog.. this has been a pretty tired week, although my life only revovles around my hse and wrkplace, i am still beri tired!! i dunnoe y.. has been trying to catch up with alot of sleep. but the strange thing is tat no matter hw much sleep i try to catch up with i still feel like sleeping more, especially in the day time.

this whole week is a pretty boring affair.. been thinking of taking scuba course but no one to accompany me, so decided to drop the idea for the time being.. i hope to go scuba wif the special someone of my life... hai.. anyway, the scuba is a real cheap deal $200 for the whole course, i was really really tempted by it but shit, no ppl either got the time or spare cash to join me!! WTF!! gng alone is so boring.. hai, nvm save up the money to buy on something else then.

this is such a boring week!! it's so boring that i have nothing interesting to put it in here!! i think i have to spice up my life a little next week.. didn't know my life was so monotonous until i try to write this.. BORING!!!!!

aiya almost forgot to link back to the topic of this entry.. i have confirm and paid for my air tix, i'm flying off and leaving everything here again on the 13th Feb.. well not actually is 13th feb, it 14th feb early early early morning at 0005 hrs. i'm gonna miss a lot of things again.. neber like to leave so many things ard.. really will miss it alot.. not looking forward to the date.. :(

Night out with a pretty ger..

2005-01-15T18:49:00.000+08:00

wah lau i just lost a 600 words blog entry due to this toopid internet connectivity which gets cut off when i click publish post!! AARRRGGGGHHHHH!!! now have to retype liao.. can't remember what i have put in just now.. *sigh* life is jz so unfair.. rethink n retype again lor, wat to do??

i thought i would gonna have a very boring n lonely nite at home on a fridayz nite.. thought of catching a movie, but doesn't seem to be able to find anyone who is free and have not the show i want to watch.. i noe but i should have watch new shows instead of shows that's weeks old but can't help it rite?? if i dun watch it i wun be able to watch it anymore in the theatre.. oso can't blame me previously was too busy wif wrk life so haven't got any chance to watch it when it was still "new".. i really thought i was gonna stay at hm to rot the whole day, till this angel appear after reading my previous blog entry..

but the only catch is that i have to go into JB to find her.. well she was equally bored too.. hehe.. so each of us jz need an activity partner tat's all.. in the beginning i wasn't really fantastic over gng into JB, as there was a 1000 reasons of not doing so (there's really a thousand reason of not doing so..), but after 1/2 hr of persuasion (obviously i try to persuade to cme SG), i finally gave in, since JB isn't really that far away frm my hse either.. and of coz it has been sometime since we last met each other.. as what she has counted a total of 7 yrs!! that's amazing rite?? after 7 yrs n we r still in contact with each other.. i guess that what technology suspose to do? shrink the world n bring each other closer.. we have been frds for like 10++ yrs, thinking of it now really makes me feel old.. hmm.. although a decade has past this ger has not change at all, maybe jz a little bit more talkative and definitely prettier.. n she is one hell of a playful ger, very naughty indeed..

nw for my adventurous trip there.. neber ever thought of i will watch movie in malaysia b4, but isn't a bad experience afterall.. the seats were very cushy n comfortable, the sound system were fantastic too.. n watching original cantonese show without dubbing over effect were infact better.. i thought i gonna have difficulty understand cantonese but it wasn't that bad too, well the only bad thing is that they don't have english subtitle!! well my chinese wasn't really fantastic.. anyway 1 thing for sure is that i have enjoyed the movie alot.. maybe it's bcoz its Stephen Chow movie, his movie can never fail to make ppl laugh.. opps i think i 4got to mention i was watching Kung Fu Hustle!! it's a great show do watch it.. oh jz b4 i forgot i wanna complain abt this toopid tall guy head infront of me.. his head is so big and he is sitting at such a high angle, kaoz for a moment i tot i was watching a cheap pirated VCD!!

anywayz the fun begins after movie.. with a pretty ger n handsome guy (that's me!!) and with a beautiful cresent moon jz above our head, we must obviously head for someplace romantic n nice right? Danga Bay is where we head for.. that place was really nice, beautiful sidewalk by the beach, cooling breeze brushing against ur face, cosy dim beautiful lights that lit the endless sidewalk, ands cafe all over the place.. have i mention there was soothing music throughout the place?? man.. this is definitely one place u couples out there should go!! u ppl dun need to admire me jz yet, coz she got a bf liao.. she said her bf size is alot bigger than me, so dun wanna play play huh.. hehe.. (dunnoe will i get chop for saying this anot?)

this wat Danga Bay is all about, looking up in the sky is the beautiful crescent moon..

take a look at the vessel, with the extremely calm waters and reflection of the lights from the vessel, it's somewhere u jz wanna be.. i think it's quite an ideal environment for the cheapskate version of titanic.. "Jack, I'm flying....."

yup that's the pretty ger i was toking about, have i mention that she was a doctor?? nice place to be rite??

i think this doctor gonna kill me for putting this picture up.. hei doctor i think one day someone may cme n look up this blog u might bcom a celebrity dr.. dun need to thank me.. hehe.. anyway i think this was a well taken pic, dun u agree?? anyway pretty ger any angle take oso will pretty one rite?? hehe.. oh ya i think i have to bear a little responsibility for the lost of ur autopass card.. she was jz generous enuff to leave it for the next person to use it, see pretty ger wif a BIG heart.. hehe.. really sorrie about the card, really feel guilty n bad abt it.. sorrie.... i will make up in other ways ok?? sorrie.............

Boring Life..

2005-01-13T02:59:00.000+08:00

Oh man.. ever since i started working on this night shift thing, i can few my life is getting more boring by the seconds.. yes your eye is not playing trick on you, i said it's getting more boring by the SECONDS!! that's hw bad it is!! when everyone starting the day i m ending my, and the super turned off part is when everyone ending their day i m starting my day!! lucky tonite is the last of my nite shift for THIS week.. this is really sucky lor, wanna catch a movie oso not able to do it.. i want to watch Kung Fu Hustle, Meet The Fockers, Ocean Twelve, wat else?? anyone wanna watch wif me anot??

you know wrking all these nite shift reminds me of the time when i was doing my national service.. it really feel as if i m doing my guard duty!! but the only diff is there's no one here for me to "screw"!! and worst thing is that i was the one kena "screwed"!! really dun understand y ppl can call in the middle of night, dun they need to sleep? dun they have a tiny little bit of feeling that they are really disturbing someone?? it's not as if it will be the end of the world when u can't connect to the internet! hmm... cme back to think of it, the ppl trying to connect are mostly guys! r they trying to connect to the internet so urgently jz bcoz they wanna surf porn?? i receive a call that day, and it was soooooo super gross!! the caller was doing all those heaving panting and breathing while talking to me!! For goodness sake, does troubleshooting his computer really turn him on so much?? strange ppl indeed..

oh ya.. thanx victor for ur comments.. and congrats u r the 1st one to drop the comments in!! abt the gathering will definitely organise one hor.. dun worry i promise i will meet up b4 i fly back.. although a bit shortage of time liao but i will still squeeze out some..

Happening Week

2005-01-11T03:28:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. so sianz.. night shift is so boring!! now happingly slouching in this big big armchair, with my leg up on the table and keyboard on my lap.. i wonder wat if my boss were to walk in right now??

anywayz, nothing much to do now.. so decided to update a little bit on my blog.. Saturday, went to O bar, and the toopid chris make me drink so much till i started puking all over the place.. well not really all over the place, jz at the lamppost or tree.. can't remember!! i guess i should have puke into his shirt, he was practically luffing his head off in his brain or was he literally luffing!! ARRGGHHH!! too drunk to remember and not significant enough for me to remember.. but he wasn't that fantastic either, after drinking so much from the games that he constantly lost to me, he was toking lots n lots of crap!! super lots of crap.. and u noe wat, those craps doesn't make a lot of sense to me.. well maybe i wasn't that sober in putting those craps into deep thoughts.. but since when craps need to put into deep thoughts?? oh man.. i wonder WTF am i writting now.. making no sense at all!! think the alcohol effect is still in me??

*sigh* i can't account for the number of times i have puke during this short vacation back in singapore. perhaps i have not been drinking for quite sometime therefore alcohol retention is very poor or maybe something is bothering me and drinking is one way to drown it?? i have to admit in the beginning i was really drowning my sorrows (not talking about this occasion).. i will seek every chance to drink till almost drop dead and dozing off immediately when my head hits my pillow. well in fact i will fall asleep practically my head "hits" anything.. but think i need to cut down a little bit.. too taxing on body.. hmm.. i wonder if i were to go on this way, will i bcom an alcoholic?? think i really need to put some serious thinking into this..

oh no!! the "Zzz Monster" is getting into me.. suddenly can feel my brain slowing down.. think getting retarded very very soon...

anyway today(monday) had a great time meet up with almost all my army mates.. so much things to talk.. i think if not for tml a wrking and i have to come to this miserable place, think we can talk for the whole nite.. really there was so much to talk about.. so much things to catch up with one another.

Thoughts of the Day:
You know sometimes i really wonder if she do miss me anot?? i really do not understand hw can a person change so much during such a short time?? the oni ans i can think of is there must be something dramatic that happen, if not it is not possible for someone to evovle into someone that is so extreme.. i really do not understand!! Life is so complex.. y can't it so simple?? wat u see is wat u get? I once told her, Life is already that complex, shouldn't we simplify things instead of causing things more complicated??

This entry is delicated to the victims of the Tsunami

2005-01-09T14:40:00.000+08:00

A minute of silence for the victims of the Tsunami.

Somethings just aren't the same when you are alone..

2005-01-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

Might not be a good start afterall..

2005-01-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

Yoz.. thanks for ur concern for my sickness.. <-- bernard. ;) I am feeling so much better, after the dreadful night on Tue..

Gee.. didn't noe it was friday liao.. time really really flies when u are busy.. hmm.. i would said this week quite happening, 1st my colleague E is sick then have to reschedule all my shift, which is making me "lifeless".. What life can i expect when i have to start work at 2pm and end at 11pm rite?? then who knows colleague still hasn't recovered yet!! 1 week MC liao still sick, think he must be feeling pretty bad, jz heard that he has extended his MC again...... and as predicted i have to work on Sat.. *sigh* never have been so accurate in predicting things, maybe i should buy some lottery, who knows i might struck a few millions.. and i can ask said F**k off to everyone liao.. HAHHAHAHAHA..

ok.. back to the harsh reality.. :( yesterday was a pretty rough day, got pretty piss off by colleague G.. KNN i really really hate backstabber and "po toh kia".. well, i've make a small mistake and he just need to tell the whole world the story!! then in the end, i kena ticked off.. Why is it in this world there are so much hypocrites?? "smiling" when in front of u and "stabbing" u when u turn ur back against them.. I really wonder do these types of ppl have any frds?? my deepest condolence to their frds.. hmm.. maybe hypocrites hang out together?? so that they can enjoy the fun of "stabbing" each other..

u know there is sometimes in life when u really miss someone terribly?? *sigh* today is the day.. suddenly waking up n missing her so much.. lots of things flashes my mind recently, i really do not know whether i should keep a promise for someone who doesn't keep it..

Thoughts of the Day:
To computer idiots out there, if u don't know how to use a computer, go learn it urself, don't go and trouble ppl in the suppoet centre!!

Cough Cough..

2005-01-05T17:46:00.000+08:00

Arrggghhh.. sick liao!! last nite took my temp.. 38C!! but surprisingly today still can come to work alive.. last night i tot i was going to die in my work place.. FYI, i am using my voice to earn money, then the calls that came in last nite was so much.. somemore i kept coughing throughout the whole conversation, of coz the end user do not noe, dun wanna get complain for coughing!! by the time my shift ended i can feel my voice is cracking, feel as if there is a toad in the throat.. *labbit*

why izzit these few daes keep on raining.. rain always remind me of her.. so sad leh.. feel as if got something not completed yet.. doesn't like that feeling..

anywayz, this morning came to work and found out my supp is on MC.. cool man.. the world belongs to me today!! (as if i care if she is around anot..) think there is a lot of virus spreading around the office, everyone is falling sick.. hmm.. if i were to take MC tml, i think a lot of ppl is gonna curse me.. i've got a feeling i will be called back to work for the weekend, but nvm, more work means more money!! best thing is i think i can get OT pay for the weekends.. anywayz since i'm just getting pay for writting blog and surfing net, well jz have to give up a little bit of life tats all..

ppl out there, leave some comments around ley.. for ppl who has no idea oh hw to do it, here's the procedure..
Step1 - Click on the word Comments.
Step2 - Click on Post Comments.
Step3 - Type in your comments. (please don't add crap inside.. thx..)
Step4 - Hit save and you are done.*
*note: It might take a while for the comments to appear. Can't blame me, i have no controls over it.. ;P

Don't feel right today..

2005-01-03T11:56:00.000+08:00

hmm.. this morning seems like waking up from the wrong side of the bed.. but not possible since i can only wake up from one side of bed, as the other side is the wall.. got a sick sick feeling hanging on to me since yesterday.. Arrggghhh.. last week was migraine this week this again?? feel like going for a brain transplant, so that can put my brain into a much better body.. hahaha....

today really woke up from the wrong side, woke up late and tots of her seems to linger in my brain the moment i woke.. doesn't feel good.. WHY?!? Aiyo 3rd day of 2005 got hiccups liao.. but nvm things will be better..

Anyway i was really very "pei fu" with myself, for the whole of the weekend stay at home.. feels like b'coming a hermit liao.. actually was thinking of volunteering with the Red Cross, but KNN email them dunnoe how to reply one leh.. but might as well lah, whole of weekend raining so also a tiny little bit lazy of moving.. (think have to add "stop procastinating" into my new yr resolution AGAIN..)

hmm.. still no program after work, so bored.. feel like catching a movie, so long never watch movie liao.. i wonder who will be free on monday night?? perhaps i should give them a msg after my lunch.. to be continue............

Happy New Year!!

2005-01-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all!!
WOAH!! 2005 finally arrived.. i have waited this year think since 2004 came.. hei i m 100% serious!! not even a bit exaggerating lor.. well since this is my so call 1st official blog entry, i think i will do abit intro 1st.

well.. let's tok abt this blog 1st.. created this blog on my Bday.. as mentioned, this blog will be delicated to her.. as she is the one who make it possible lor, after she left i was basically left with too much time on my hand, then somemore can't even tok to her.. so might as well create a blog, put in my feelings and hopefully she will see this blog one day.. ppl out there, if u noe who i m toking about please let her noe that such a site exists.. at least i can increase the percentage of her seeing all these rite?? THANKS HUR!!

today is the 1st day of 2005~~ really excited abt this year lor.. coz lz year basically my life was in a mess.. the number of extras and weekend duty that i done is uncountable, the things that happen in my life jz isn't gng as expected.. everytime i hope for this to happen, then the opposite will actually happen.. wat is worst is the fact that i lost her.. when she tell me, i was really really devasated, so much so that i think i let myself fall into depression.. but thankfully, i manage to realise things were gng a little too far off track. wat worse was that all these things happen while i was in australia.. i really feel so helpless n hopeless.. and till now i still feel so helpless..

i tot i can win her back when i cme back to singapore but the more i try, the further she go.. hai.. feel so toopid.. yes i noe, u guy has advice me not to be toopid lor.. but u noe sometimes ppl jz need to find the ans by themselves b4 they can see the whole pic.. there was so many occasion that i walked aimlessly to nowhere and it always jz ended up to somewhere near her.. it really feel so terrible at that time.. ok ppl.. u can scold me nw.. i really feel so toopid now.. but i can tell i have not regret wat i have done.. :) hmm... i wonder if this blog can add emoticons anot?? u shall find out in my nz blog entry..

oh ya b4 i forgot i wanna apologise to her for all the inconvinence caused by my foolish behave.. the paragraph below is for her..

[[dun be angry anymore lah hor.. i was really really blinded by emotions that i couldn't control.. really please forgive the mistakes that i have done, there is no one in this world that is perfect.. it oni takes hw long for one to realise the mistakes.. there was a proverb or something like tat, tat said "To Err is Human, To Forgive is Saint" correct me if i am wrong..

err.. if u ever were to feel guilty abt wat u done, pls dun.. coz frm the day that i have make my decision to be wif u, i have oreadi forgiven ur mistakes.. if ever u need energy, strength and support for some very difficult decision and period, and no one else u can turn to, feel free to come n look for me.. i definitely will be there.. u will always be welcome.. there r lots of things that i still wanna tell u and give u, but i neber really have a chance to do so.. i really hope that we can still be friends.. hope that u will ring me up one day..]]

hmm.. have i covered almost everything?? i think i have..

Bored Bored Bored

2004-12-10T03:31:00.000+08:00

this is a test..
anyway oso thinking of should i start this blog early anot??

Coming Soon in 2005

2004-12-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

Haloz ppl!!

welcome to my blog..
err.. think i will onli get this up in the new year..
need to think of new resolution for the new year...
as well as need to get my digi-cam 1st..

2004 is a bad year..
so hoping 2005 is a better year..

so till then..